The Enemy is Fighting to Defeat You

If you were not on this earth, life for everyone else who is still here would never be the same. When everything feels hopeless, it helps to be reminded of your true value to everyone in your life.

Last week I was at a coffee shop with the intention to write, but I made a friend instead. They shared their wisdom about life with me. This person shared parts of their testimony. Despite having a HARD life, they choose to remain positive. I shared about the first time that Satan had a spirit of death, depression, and suicidal thoughts over me.

How they responded to me is relevant to anyone struggling with suicidal thoughts past or present. I was told, "The enemy does not want you here because he knows how special you are, what you have done and are going to do here on this earth for the glory of God." That statement has so much truth in it.

Don't Lessen Your Mark on the World

If I had died the first time I desperately wanted to, I would not have been able to make the small mark on the world that I have made. I wouldn’t have the honor of helping those whom I have gotten the chance to help, and Lama Leah wouldn’t be what it is and my thoughts and wisdom would not have reached around the world. In my wildest dreams I never thought that my life would change for the better, but against my contrary belief, it did! I have been able to do some things and help some people that I would have never have thought was possible.

The Enemy is intimidated by those who are going to do great things for the kingdom! When he sees something great that comes from God his instincts are to destroy it and prevent it from doing its work. The most rewarding thing that you can do is overcome the devil through the blood of Christ. 

When I personally choose to fight for life, my depression did not end, nor was I always content with my decision. In the small moments of hope that’s when I knew that it was worth it. For me, it was giving a friend a hug who is hurting, snuggles with my dog, drinking peppermint tea, late nights focused on art projects, and writing a blog post that others enjoy or learn from.  Life is worth fighting for!

If you die from suicide, you take the mark that you have and will put on the world and make it significantly lighter because if you continue to live the possibilities that you have to make your mark are endless. The world will absolutely never be the same without you because you bring something unique and individual to the world. If you are suicidal, I am truly begging you to give this life another chance.

Choosing Life Is Worth It

Life may not become instantly better, but it can and will change eventually. God could be allowing you to go through this season as an opportunity to grow. Maybe God will use the season that you are in now to give you wisdom for a different season. I promise you that choosing life will be worth it!

Two years ago, in the car, when my best friend was pleading for me to fight, she told me this, “You can’t take your life, think about how great the day will be when you are able to say, ‘I made it through this hell and look where I am now.’ Things can only get better from here.” What she said was true. If you are suicidal from a bully in your life (any kind of bully, a physical person, depression, current life circumstances, the DEVIL, etc.), how will you be able to prove them wrong if you’re not alive to do so? From my experience, the rewarding part of various struggles in life is when you can overcome them.

Victory Is Possible

Those who have the hardest life become the strongest people. If you are currently suicidal, please be encouraged. The battles that you are in are worth fighting. It is impossible to achieve victory if you give up, and you can be victorious. I promise you that life will change, and when it does, you will be grateful that you did not act on your plan. Think about what a great day it will be when you are able to see the beauty in your hardships. Suicide eliminates the chances of life becoming better because it stops your journey in this world.

If you choose life let me, tell you this, it will not always be an easy battle to overcome, but it is worth every hardship and tear. Jesus is here to walk with you, by your side, every step of the way. Everything will be okay in the end, if it’s not okay now, remember it simply isn’t the end.

If you or a friend need support right now, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255, for free confidential, 24/7 help. Head here for a list of crisis centers around the world. For additional help, please visit the suicide prevention resource page.