I Made a Bad Choice to Cover My Pain
Before I married my husband, I lost someone who was my everything. He passed away, and I never coped with his loss. I just wanted someone to love me and fill that spot in my heart. And that's where my husband comes in. He made me feel loved for a few days. I got married at 21 years-old. However, our relationship was never stable. We were always on again/off again.
I Ignored the Red Flags
In our relationship, I have gone through physical, emotional, and verbal abuse. I thought I was really in love, but the abuse started after I told him I was really falling for him. We broke up got back together and broke and back together for a year this went on. I decided to quit drinking and I quit doing drugs for him by then we were engaged. We married and nothing changed. He cheated with my used-to-be BFF from high school. This has taken a huge toll on me emotionally.
I've Had Enough - TheHopeLine Helped!
So today on our 2nd anniversary I decided "no more!" I was having thoughts of suicide and self-harm. But I didn't really want that, so I searched online to talk to someone. I chatted with a HopeCoach who was able to hear me out on everything I'm going through. I signed up for an e-mail mentor to help me cope with my divorce.
So the journey begins. Trust me I'm scared and in a way excited to get through this with TheHopeLine's help. Thank you for Hope.
If you too have been abused or cheated on, we are so sorry. No one ever deserves to be treated that way. Please know that you are valuable and worthy and it's O.K. to stand up for yourself. If you are scared or you don't know where to start, we are here to help.
First, believe that you are worth loving and read this - How Can I Learn to Love Myself. Then read either I've been Cheated on...Now What? or Hope for the Abused. Also, don't live in silence, please start talking to someone. Just like Jewel, you can chat with a HopeCoach and sign up for an e-mail mentor from our Get Help page and get support for your journey.
If you or someone you know is in an abusive relationship, you are not alone. There is help for you.
If you or a friend need support right now, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255, for free confidential, 24/7 help. For a list of crisis centers around the world and additional help, please visit the suicide prevention resource page.