I grew up in a home where I was sexually abused by my father on a daily basis until the age of 19. I was also abused by my step grandfather from the age of 6-17. I always blamed myself and would tell myself that I deserved this. I was always told that I was damaged goods now and that no man would ever want me. My father got me pregnant twice and I had one abortion and gave a child up for adoption. The pain, hurt, shame and guilt were too much to bear and I had several suicide attempts. I also resorted to cutting so that I could feel again, as I was so numb and needed an escape. I reached out for help and spoke with someone at TheHopeLine and that has been a huge help.