On the Verge of Giving Up

I always used to listen to Dawson McAllister on the radio…. never thought I would be one to contact them for help… thank you TheHopeLine.

I was on the verge of giving up…I talked to a girl last night for about 2 hours. I came to you guys with my problems. My best friend that I’ve grown up with and been with my whole life died in a horrible stupid accident. The girl I gained feelings for, that I’ve never had before, needed space. She’s 18 years old has a 19 month old son, who I think is probably the coolest little dude in the world. The girl has everything I’m looking for and her flaws are easily passable for me. But she just broke up with the father that she dated for 4 years and we started talking a few weeks after so I understood she needed time…but the killer was she no longer wishes to really talk to me while she needs space. I didn’t know what to do, I promised her I would wait for her to be ready. Her and her kid mean everything to me. I break down a few times every day. Everything reminds me of her. I hear a song. I tear up. I see a mom and son I tear up. I see a picture of her, I break down. And after I lost my friend this was just the topping to the cake. I knew I was no longer myself.

I knew I needed help before the suicidal thoughts would come. So I came to the one place I knew I could say what’s going on, without being judged and made fun of.

I sadly forgot the girl’s name I talked to, I wish I could thank the HopeCoach again. She walked me through everything. She told me to wait and give the girl space. That she will come back when she’s ready. Tomorrow, I will go to a professional for more help with depression and the anxiety. The girl I talked to last night also talked to me about getting a new personal relationship with our Lord. I said the prayer she gave me last night and I felt His presence, I felt the change…I’ve never been so thankful to have someone to talk to or listen.

So again, I thank all of you for what you do.