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What To Do When You Feel Suicidal

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These four interventions could save your life or the life of someone you love when they or you feel suicidal.

I know life can be hard and problems can pile so high that we cannot see a way out. I want to give you some practical ideas to try when you are at the depth of despair and feeling overwhelmed and hopeless. When you feel suicidal please try these four steps.

When you have lost hope and believe suicide is the only way out, please try these four ideas:

1. Reach Out for Help

I understand that finding the strength to do this can be really hard, especially if you also feel alone, but people are available to help.

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Every person who is even remotely thinking of suicide, should have a Contract For Life partner. A Contract For Life partner is someone you trust and who understands you. This is someone you make a commitment to that says,

I promise thHelping a suicidal friendat if I have serious thoughts of killing myself, I will talk with you or with someone else I trust before I do anything destructive.

John is a survivor and here is his advice, “Don’t keep quiet if you are going to hurt yourself or others…please speak up. If you are feeling suicidal then talk to someone, don’t keep quiet about it. There is someone out there who will listen to you.” You can read his full story here.

Keely said she has an older friend she calls when she feels suicidal thoughts coming on: I told her everything. And I told her that I need her help. Sometimes I just call to hear her voice to know I’m not alone. Other times, I ask if we can get together. She doesn’t grill me, she’s just there for me.

A Contract For Life partner is priceless because you can meet with them face to face or talk on the phone anytime. If you do not have one, please make it a priority to go looking for one today.

2. Refer to your Safety Plan

Take time right now to print out the Prevention Checklist and fill in the blanks of the  Suicide Safety Plan.  Then when you are feeling hopeless pull out your plan and follow what you have written down.

3. Remove whatever can harm you at that very moment.

If there are guns, knives, and pills in your house, then RUN from your house. Get away from anything you can use to hurt yourself. This will buy you time to settle down and begin to think rationally. Some people are most suicidal when they are drunk. Have someone you know and trust clear all those things out of your house.

Wendalin said she was suicidal for over three years, but was helped by knowing she wasn’t alone:  I had a friend who was there for me no matter what. I tried to push this friend away so many times, she took away the knifes and scissors I’d cut with, my Dad’s diving knife, my grandpa’s gun, and the hose and rope so I couldn’t hang myself. Even though I was so mad at her for it, I knew she cared and that she really did love me.

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Glory wrote: I tried a couple times but it never really worked. Then one night I realized something. If you can’t change it, get over it. There are much better things to do in life then sit around hating life. God gave us life so we should use it. Killing yourself is only running away from your problems. It won’t help one bit.

4. Turn to other Activities

The key here is to get your mind off of doing the unthinkable. If you are near suicide, you want to change the subject, feel suicidal interveneor divert your mind from what you were planning to do. Walk, jog, bike, swim, take a nap, take a hot shower, watch a movie, listen to music, read a book, do household chores, clean, go shopping, go to the park, volunteer at an animal shelter for a few hours – An excuse to play with puppies? Yes please! Anything that has the potential to help you lift your spirit.

If you are near suicide, you want to change the subject, or divert your mind from what you were planning to do.

Kelsey discovered this worked for her: I actually went and got a knife to kill myself and I just stopped and I was thinking this really isn’t solving my problems is it? So I just decided to try to get into something like hip-hop classes, get my mind off my life, and just try to live life to the fullest.

There are many more articles on TheHopeLine regarding suicide and we want you to know you are not alone. You matter, you are good enough and you are loved.

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If you or a friend need support right now, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255, for free confidential, 24/7 help. Head here for a list of crisis centers around the world. For additional help, please visit the suicide prevention resource page.

For more on what to do if you are having suicidal thoughts or if you know someone who is considering suicide, check out TheHopeLine’s eBook: Understanding Suicide.

Dawson McAllister Dawson McAllister (born in New Kensington, Pennsylvania) is an American speaker, radio host, and author. He is the founder of Dawson McAllister Association and TheHopeLine and host of the national radio program Dawson McAllister Live, which is aired on Sunday nights. Dawson has been speaking to and in support of teenagers and young adults for over 40 years.
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  • Tayla

    Thank you so much for this! I realise how stupid I was for considering the so called ‘easy way out’ I realised that my pain would just pass on to the people around me if I did kill myself. I’ve decided to enjoy all aspects of life the good and the bad because I can learn from them. I really can’t thank you enough for this powerful message. You saved my life!

    • Javier

      Im thinking of ending it i have tried in the past but i was stop by my old friends but now i have pushed them out my life end im scared cuz i know i will do it and this time i have no1 to stop me i need help

      • roja

        Hi Javier,

        Please don’t think you are alone.. They are people like you who wants to end there lives too. Please come in contact with one of those people listen to there problems may be you will save there lives and you will get an internal strength to not to Suicide.

        And FYI I am one you too… Please remember we don’t know what life is after death? We have option to end this Life will we have the same option there? I ask my self this question.

  • I’m so seriuos I’m killing myself..I need help pleaaassee someone

    • roja


      Hope you doing Well. Just read your Comment… Dear Please reply me back if you can. God is the strongest have faith in him.. He is just next to you giving you the helping hand please accept his help, by helping your self.

    • TheHopeLine Team

      We sent you an email and hope you have talked to someone about how your feeling of wanting to end your life. Please continue to seek out help by calling us at 800.394.4673 or chatting with a HopeCoach at http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp. You can also find help at the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255

  • I can’t tell u my name

    I now will kill me self

    • roja

      Try Calling the Help line…

    • TheHopeLine Team

      We sent you an email and hope you have talked to someone about how your feeling of wanting to end your life. Please continue to seek out help by calling us at 800.394.4673 or chatting with a HopeCoach at http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp. You can also find help at the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255

    • anonymous girl


    • anonymous girl

      Please don’t. Do it for me, a sad girl. A sick girl. A girl who is treated like a trash can by her *Best Friend*. I have suicidal thoughts sometimes, so I look up cute kittens online, and stare deeply in space into the kitten’s loving eyes. Heavenly Father(aka God, I’m mormon) wanted you to have a place in this world, and everyone has trials, for jugglers sake, my mom had a 2 ton cargo luggage cart park on her foot! Think of that, think about how you are not bedridden like my poor, poor mother! Go to the E.R. IMMEDIATELY!!!!! Mental illnesses are JUST AS IMPORTANT as physical illnesses! Trust me. Everyone has trials. Everyone suffers! Please, don’t do it, and even if this email is useless, just know, I am here for you, family is here for you, God is here for you. Just pray(if you don’t know what praying is, it is folding you arms and bowing your head, talking to God) to God and ask him for advice. Ask him what to do. Trust me. *Trust him!* Please, I beg with all my heart! Don’t commit suicide. Suicide is a degree of murder. Trust me…..

      • Sierra

        I’m a Mormon as well. I’ve had suicidal thoughts on and off my whole life.

    • irrelevant

      Idk when this was posted… are you alright? Please don’t do it!

  • Tersa

    I live chatted with a very strong and beautiful soul at HOPE line, I was feeling Suicidal but after chatting with her and her telling me her story I did feel better. I felt HOPE and I had not felt that in a very long time. But with each passing day I have noticed my resolve in the fact I don’t want to die is waning again, I feel like I should not call or chat again because I feel like I am letting her down now that those thoughts are creeping in again. My panic attacks during the night are getting worse and my night terrors are getting worse, and I am remembering things That I thought I had buried so deep they could not resurface, But there they are and I am feeling like my hope is slipping away, Should I or would it be bad if I chatted again?

    • TheHopeLine Team

      Teresa, Thank you so much for your kind words and story! We are here for you 24/7 please feel free to chat with a HopeCoach again. If they didn’t get a chance on your first chat to give you some resources they will be able to give you some the next time you chat in. We have some great partners and one that you may really like is to sign up for an email mentor that you can continue to email back and forth with for as long as you like about what ever is going on in your life. Please do not hesitate to reach out to us again when you feel like you need to talk. We care!

  • sane

    Maybe there is a world better developed I do not belong in society im nothing. family dont care more poison than anything. not one friend… Its so easy to just jump off the cliff.. the world i want to be in is not here.. Just once i wanted help but was to ashamed to ask for it i wanted somebody anyone to tell me make me get help. now i know that its too late cause im at the cliff to afraid to go over and to afraid to stay.

  • sane

    I wish it was that easy.. I wish somebody else would pull the trigger…

  • sane

    I hate september bad memories.. I just want to close my eyes and this month to be over i want it all over.
    Somebody pull the trigger and kill me..

    • TheHopeLine Team

      Sane, September can be extremely hard and may open up old wounds. We respect your feelings and want you to know that we care about you today and everyday. Please feel free to call or chat with us anytime. If you want download our free app to your phone to chat, listen to the show, get an email mentor and get encouraged here is the link to download it. http://thehope.dm/thlmobileapp


    I am a loser. I’ve completed my graduation on public administration & have appeared for post-graduation. I don’t have a job. I have to rely upon tutoring children on a minimal salary. My father worked for ARMY. Now he works as a driver for a man with a very low salary. I’ve fallen in love with a girl 1 year junior than me. I really love her a lot. she has a government job in a primary school and her family is quite solvent than mine. She lacks faith in me. Every time I say something she suspects as if I’m cheating on her. but, I am really of not that type. I just can’t live without her. but, she really doesn’t get me. I am facing difficulties to maintain my family expenditures while on the other hand I always have to keep my self tensed in fear of losing her any moment. sometimes I feel it might be easier to let go of life than living it.

    • TheHopeLine Team

      Parvez, Thank you for reaching out to us. It takes a lot of courage to reach out and we commend you for doing this. You have accomplished so much. What a blessing to have a degree in public administration. Please never give up on your hopes and dreams. Keep persevering through this! It may seem like there is no end to what you are going through, but there is. Your challenges are temporary and you have a great life ahead of you full of happiness. We are here for you and we truly want to listen to what is going on in your life and offer you some ways to cope with it. Please call us or chat with us at TheHopeLine today at 800.394.4673 or chat at http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp. We have a free app you can download to your phone to chat with as well at http://thehope.dm/thlmobileapp.

  • Hing

    busy hours, busy life, but i think i shall drop by for a sec to say THANK YOU.

    Your chat line has help to clam me down. Manage to make me not too defensive, as i usually do.

    I still don’t really understand what was happening how do we connect spiritual from scientific point of view. Not visible, only have relaxing feeling after all. Though i was not 100% believed but i also can’t explain how i can become better.

    For what ever reasons, THANK YOU. THANK YOU. and sorry if i make you wait for long at the end of the chat, as i accidentally fall as sleep.

  • Annie

    Yes it’s so easy just to forget your depression. Obviously the writer of this article has never stood on a bridge, feeling like there is no other way out but to jump. But I’ll just “distract” myself because that works.

  • Shay

    My world has ended. A 10 year relationship down the tubes. I’ve never been closer to anyone in my life…He hates me now. I have no one else closer and lost a mutual best friend in the process. It haunts me daily. I was with this person from 23-33 and I feel like I’m behind glass. Getting to know anyone else is a chore with such negativity wafting around me. I’ve been on SSI since I was 23 for mental disorders. I can’t get the thought of erasing myself out of my mind. Help

  • Sad-one

    Actually I don’t think that taking my life will solve all my problems it will just spare the others from the problems I cause

  • Sad-one

    Recently i have been doing so many mistakes that i can’t even count it would be better if i could just spare anyone from my mistakes

  • Hate-life

    I have nothing I can live for the only thing i cherish most is my dog i know he does’t get what i tell him but i just feel like i can let my heart out for him and I just don’t know what will happen to me when he passes away.

  • Strawsons Theory

    Struggling with finding purpose in our ever expanding, never sleeping world. With so many people, how can individuals hold any real purpose outside of their collective purpose. Boredom, detachment and general emotional numbness doesn’t help either. Suicide a constant companion, almost soothing.

  • TheHopeLine

    Please never give up! You are not alone in the struggles you are facing. We are here and ready to help. Call us or chat with us at TheHopeLine today? We are open 24/7 and all you have to do is call 800.394.4673 or you can chat with one of our HopeCoaches about what is going on at http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp . If you have a phone we have a free app you can download to contact us for help. Here is the link to download it. http://thehope.dm/thlmobileapp
    -TheHopeLine Team

  • TheHopeLine

    You are not alone in the struggles you are facing. You are worthy, loved and the Lord has great plans for you. Please never give up! Call us or chat with us at TheHopeLine today? We are open 24/7 and all you have to do is call 800.394.4673 or you can chat with one of our HopeCoaches about what is going on at http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp . If you have a phone we have a free app you can download to contact us through chat, phone or email. http://thehope.dm/thlmobileapp

  • Madison

    Man I have a severe anxiety disorder, i just found out i’m pregnant for the second time and i’m only 17, my boyfriend and i broke up and he told me that he doesn’t love me anymore, my mom is still abusive, i’m failing school, I’m done. Maybe life isn’t for everyone.

  • life sucks.

    Sigh everything was ok , just another day I went to wrk to be lied on by a 90 yearold female it’s so unfair , all I can say is why me now am looking at jail are misdemeanor. What’s the reason for living if you can’t just go about your life without someone messing it up.

    • blu paws

      Take responsibility. For your. Actions and stop. Blaming

  • TheHopeLine

    Sometimes reading a blog isn’t enough help. That’s why TheHopeLine is open 24/7. Our trained HopeCoaches want to help you. Please reach out and give us a call. TheHopeLine: 1-800-394-4673 (HOPE)

  • Rose

    Everyone who I try to talk to just think I’m crazy when I’m not, I’m just hurt soo much to the extent that nothing feels possible anymore, to that point were life was just my enemy, and death was my only hope out of this infrerno.I’ve been debating about this for awhile now, and everyday that goes on is one more day I lose hope and there isn’t much hope left, I have everything planned but I don’t want to end up a disappointment or a coward that’s what my dad says people who do suicide are but I just think it’s people who are hurt and don’t know how to express it and we are too scared to do so.

  • Jypsy Giordano

    Please, Susan. I know it seems so hard right now, with no way to escape, but please trust me when I tell you that you have so much to live for, and so much more to accomplish in your life. I’m 17. I was feeling completely depressed, which brought me to your comment. Please don’t give up. I know we don’t know each other, but if you ever need help or someone to talk to, please contact me.

  • TheHopeLine

    We want you to know that you matter and you are loved and worthy. You are not alone in this. We are here to help. You can chat with a HopeCoach at http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp A HopeCoach is available 24/7. You can also sign up for an Email mentor to talk about what is going on for as long as you like from our Get Help page too. We also have an app that you can chat or email from too at http://thehope.dm/thlmobileapp

  • im really depressed. and my mom doesnt understand she just gets mad at me and doesnt even BELIEVE in suicide someone help

  • Chris

    I’m so tired. I’m sick of just living day by day. The utter despair, emptiness, and lonliness. I want it to come to an end– one way or another. I don’t want to talk to anybody. I just want it to end. No one can help. I’ve been there trying to get help. Nothing works. My heart is far to numb and frozen to be open to anything. I feel like a walking corpse of death and despair. Please let this end. Eternal slumber. No despair, no nothing.

  • MY name isn’t important

    I wake up 5/7 days wanting to rather die, or cry until I fall back asleep. Both my parents suffer from bipolar disorder pretty bad and I wonder if that’s the reason, I have an amazing family, good home, and great friends…but none of this makes it better. I’m just..sad? for no reasons except that I don’t think I will ever get help, or be happy. Talking to someone wouldn’t help because they try to find the reason I feel like this, yet I can’t give a solid one, I tell myself I should be happy I’m alive and still…nothing

    • TheHopeLine

      What you described are symptom of depression. It is not your fault you are feeling this way and it’s very important that you talk to your parents about how you are feeling as soon as possible. They should be very open to helping you find the resources you need since they have experienced similar feeling themselves. Thank you so much for coming to our blog and for seeking help. We are here if you want to chat with a HopeCoach anytime at http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp

  • TheHopeLine

    Please never give up on this life. There is hope. We are here to listen and help you get through this. Call 800.394.4673 or chat with a HopeCoach 24/7 at http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp

  • TheHopeLine

    Sometimes hearing about how someone else made it “out of the boat” can give you strength. Check out this video by Garrett Russell who plays with the band, Silent Planet. http://www.heartsupport.com/blogs/athlete-wheelchair-garrett-russell-silent-planet/ And remember TheHopeLine is here for you 24/7.

  • texasgirl

    Can a person go to the ER for help

    • TheHopeLine

      Yes, you can definitely go to the ER if you are feeling suicidal. Our HopeCoaches are available 24/7 to answer your questions. Call or chat now. 1-800-394-4673 (HOPE)

  • TheHopeLine

    Our HopeCoaches are available 24/7. Please call anytime 1-800-394-4673 (HOPE). They have lots of great resources for you. Also, you can go to our resource page on on the website that has a list of our trusted partner ministries- http://www.thehopeline.com/partners-list/

  • TheHopeLine

    Aurora, Thank you for sharing your struggle. Our HopeCoaches are available 24/7 on the telephone or through chat. They can listen and connect you with other resources to help you through this. We care about you! http://www.thehopeline.com/GetHelp/

  • TheHopeLine

    Teresa, Please never give up! You have so much in your future that will bring you happiness and joy that you will never know about if you give up. This challenging place in your life is temporary. Your beautiful children need to grow up having a mother. You can chat with a HopeCoach 24/7 at http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp. We also have a partner you can contact for help They provide free and confidential information and referral and can help you find food, housing, employment, health care, counseling and more.Go to their site at: http://www.211.org/

  • Cali

    Hi. I know that feeling. I was just thinking the same thing today. Just know, you’re not alone in feeling that way.

  • TheHopeLine

    Diana- We care about you. Please reach out. All calls/chats are confidential. HopeCoaches are available 24/7. http://www.thehopeline.com/GetHelp/

  • Jo

    I know the feeling…would you like to talk? I’m here

  • oliver

    Hey, is this free?? I’d appreciate an answer asap..

  • Cory Orndorff

    I really need help. this isn’t a joke. I’ve been all over the Internet looking for the easiest ways to do it. I’ve hurt so bad for the past year. idk what to do. I don’t wanna chat with a stranger on a hotline. I have no one I am comfortable with to chat to. I’m loosing my mind and idk what to do. I can’t keep hurting every day like this anymore. don’t look me up on fb or anything please. I don’t want family knowing. I just wanna find ways to make it stop. it’s killing me

  • no name

    I want to call to get help but i know if i do they will send the police and bring me to a mental hospital… not something im going to do

    • Sophie

      Me too

  • I find no joy in life… I find no meaning…. And i don’t like talking to people, I find people annoying. I don’t have anyone close to me either.

  • done trying

    in south africk there are not many places to seek help i no i have tryed getting help but now i am done trying i am ready to quit

  • Taylor

    I just hate my life..I have no one in my life..
    My parents gave me away at birth and the lady they gave me to gave me away and then she gave me away I got beat almost every day of my life and I get verbally abused everyday of my life.all the guys I’ve been with used me for sex and then cheated on me I’ll never be love

    • Sherry

      Jesus loves you he knows your pain give it to him when you feel this way, he gave his life for you. Not only to save you from hell but to give you a new life, a happier life. He will give you the love that you have never had.

  • No that important am I

    Maybe I want to die because this world is cruel horrible and prisoners get more help for the bad they have done and the rest are left to struggle with no job fear of going no where in life and punished on a daily basis for just being in this world sooner it ends the better

  • Chi83

    I feel less alone when I read this. I see a lot of people feel the same way. I moved across the country. My child did badly in school, was angry and violent. I was stunned. I withdrew him and homeschooled him, left my job. That caused financial problems. My mom died. My car got repossessed. I am behind on my rent. I dropped out of college. I have thoughts of suicide but I am a wife, mother, a sister, daughter and friend. When I think of the pain it would cause, I hang on. But sometimes the pain and fear is overwhelming. It is so hard to fight your own mind.

  • TheHopeLine chat system translates in ANY language in ANY country and we have resources all over the world. Please chat with a HopeCoach anytime 24/7 – http://www.thehopeline.com/chat-now/

  • Nobody

    It’s time to end it. I’ve been through the therapy, the meds and everything. My life just continues to spiral down and everything I touch or come near turns to crap. So by this time tomorrow I am going to be gone

    • swishtrish

      Hope you are feeling better than when you posted

  • I am so sorry you couldn’t get through. Our online and mobile chat system is the best way to talk to a HopeCoach – the phone lines can get tied up. Please try again – http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp

  • anonymous

    I’m feeling really stuck. It feels like everyone is turning against me right now and that I have no one to talk to. All this drama keeps happening to me and I don’t know what I am doing wrong. I am really afraid of what next would be happening and I no longer want to even be alive anymore. I should just kill myself I would be better off. I think that would maybe make me happy or do someone a favor. I have no friends at school and I don’t have the most well off situation that most have at home, and my parents died. I am thinking that I am coming close to ending my life…

  • Chatting with a HopeCoach about how you are feeling could help you find insight and hope into your situation. We are here for you 24/7 online – http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp/

    • Lewis

      I am 20 and have lived with depression/anxiety since I was 16 I am on 100mg of sertreline and they did help for a while on and off but this suicidal thought is persistent and won’t go, I have tried therapy( not for me) and speaking to my doctor but nothing seems to change what should I do

  • Katalina

    I want to kill myself, like right now! 🙁

  • anonymous

    There really isnt always a way for me to take away dangers, I’ve been suicidal multiple times and one of the times I was near my staircase. I climbed and jumped over the staircase and as I was about to fall, I grabbed on. I didn’t mean to grab on, it was just a part of me that forced it to happen. My hands were slipping off the staircase and hurting badly from the way I grabbed the staircase, I knew it was now or never when my hands almost fell. I decided to climb up, but please help, I know this may happen again with something else.

  • Darren

    I feel like killing myself because anyone that talks to me replaces me after a while nobody needs me

    • Keith

      I understand that feeling. How do you feel about the concept of waiting and keeping trying until you DO find that person who you need and who needs you.

      Sometimes I feel like therapy in this situation helps because the therapist definitely needs you because without you, they won’t have a job. Have you looked into therapy? It’s an amazing source granted you find the right therapist for you.

  • hurt and alone

    Yesterday was my grandpas funeral. he was the only relative who didn’t hate me for who i was and now hes dead. i just want to make it all stop it hurts so much.

  • iwanttodie

    In my case is more than 30 years and counting……

  • Proud of you for communicating with your family. They will hopefully want to help now that they know you are hurting. If you want to talk about it, our HopeCoaches are avilable to chat online with you 24/7 http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp/

  • Jnk

    I’ve been taken anti depressants for about three years but I’ve never felt as low I do right know. Just walking round town, you only notice all the smiling and laughing people and this makes you feel worse and worse. Just trying to hold back the tears when I’m driving home, and thinking why am I feeling like this, nice car, flat, decent job. It makes NO sense, then you start thinking you are weak and should be getting over it. Then a part of you says but it IS an illness this make no difference to you, you still feel empty.

    I feel I have nothing to look forward to, I feel I’m rarely happy which must be effecting the people I work with. At work I try and perk up by drinking lots of coffee. but I feel my colleagues try to avoid talking to me, then I think am I just being paranoid…. there must be something..

    The drugs don’t work. Maybe therapy works, not tried it.

    The only thing I’m weighing up is whether I can just end my life, BUT how it will effect my family. They have tried to help as much as they can, but I feel at the end of the day this is MY choice and I may take it.

    • Please don’t give up! Depression is truly an illness and sometimes it takes time to find the right medicine that works for your body chemistry. And talking to someone is really important. You can chat with a HopeCoach anytime 24/7 – it is free and confidential. http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp/ I know it feels really hopeless right now, but things really can get better. Let’s talk about it.

  • Family disgrace

    I just really am thinking about killing myself for real this time my parents are gone it could work they wouldnt find me till tomorrow…

  • Thank you for sharing your story and for your honesty. It sounds like you are in a really dark, hurting, and lonely place right now. We aren’t here to preach, but to listen, understand, and lend you our support. HopeCoaches are real people who have been through traumas of their own and can listen with real compassion. Our chat system is through text messages or online. It’s free, confidential, and open 24/7. We really are here for you. Please give us a try. http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp/

  • Doesn’t matter

    I’m not going to mention my life story because unlike most, I don’t want the attention. However, you need to understand that this just isn’t enough. Sometimes nothing can stop the thoughts. I came here fro help with dealing with those, but you don’t understand that your helpful tips are absolutely useless

    • I am glad you are reaching out. We understand that each person’s story is unique and one blog is not going to help everyone. That is why we offer more than just this one blog. We have trained HopeCoaches who are available to chat with you one-on-one anytime 24/7. All chats are free and confidential. Our HopeCoaches have experience, wisdom, and compassion. http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp/ Please give us a try.

  • We will definitely help you! We have an online chat system that is open 24/7, it’s free and confidential. We have HopeCoaches who are ready to listen and help. We are here for you – http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp/

  • Please don’t give up. You are in a really difficult and very negative situation. We can connect you with an email mentor who will support and encourage you. We have other resources, too. Chat with us anytime 24/7 http://www.thehopeline.com/GetHelp/

  • Please don’t give up. Let us help you. We have some excellent partner resources for you. Chat with us anytime 24/7 http://www.thehopeline.com/GetHelp/
    Check out this true story about a girl from France who chatted with a HopeCoach – http://www.thehopeline.com/suicide-self-harm/
    There is hope for you!

  • You are right that just reading a blog is not enough. It really helps to talk to someone. We can also connect you with real resources and more support. Please chat with a HopeCoach http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp/ We are here for you 24/7.

  • Markasia

    Tired of people leaving me walking out my life without no explanation , being lied to . Just ready for it to all end !

    • What you are going through is very hard, especially when you feel abandoned and isolated from people you thought you could trust. Sometimes it helps to talk to someone who cares. We are here for you 24/7 on chat http://www.thehopeline.com/GetHelp/ Please don’t give up.

  • It sounds like you are in a really dark place of hopelessness right now. We want to chat with you. Sometimes talking to someone who cares can help. We have HopeCoaches available 24/7 http://www.thehopeline.com/GetHelp/ Let us be there in your darkness with you.

  • I understand one blog may not make a difference, but how about hearing someone else’s story? In our eBook you can listen to people share their story and how they got help. Also, it helps to talk to someone about your feelings. Our HopeCoaches are here to chat with you anytime 24/7 http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp/ Here is the link to the free eBook – http://info.thehopeline.com/selfharm
    We care about you!

  • Anonymous

    I have been living with depression since 11 years old. im now 35 completely stuck, and dont know what to do. Can anyone please help me?

    • Yes, we can help. Depression can worsen over time and increase in intensity because of life circumstances, but there is help. Let us hear your story and we can connect you with the best resources. You are not alone, we are here for you – http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp/

    • paris

      talk to me.

  • d Dez

    I understand how you feel. I am a wedlock baby and sometimes feel that I don’t belong on this earth. I often get irritated with God for allowing my mother to get pregnant with me. You may have made a mistake by having a child when you weren’t ready. But sweetie, because you have a daughter, live life. She doesn’t want to see her mom go. Maybe it was an act of God that you just so happened to call 911 when you attempted suicide.

  • Always Amazed

    My contract partner is the one causing the pain. I am tired of fighting to live. I’m not killing myself to get away from a situation or person, I’m killing myself to get away from all the responsibilities of my 57yr life. I may not have any feelings once I’m done but I know I won’t feel this tired and feel like I am the engine of every train. I am mom of the special needs child, wife of a clueless really nice husband, and I work like a dog for anybody I ever work for, I volunteer in organize events, I will help represent special-needs people in court as just a courtesy and pro bono. I do everything and people are more than happy to have me do it because I’m good at whatever I do. I’m done doing everything.

  • Work mom

    Sometimes I would talk to a stranger someone I did know and thy didn’t know me.when I was 14 I live on the street homeless and sometimes no food to eat I was in a very dark place. But I talked to stranger cause they didn’t know me an they would help me fine food.i know you feel alone but have you try to volunteer at your local Shelter.and there is nothing wrong with you you just need some guidance an pointed in the right direction. I also went to job crop just to get away from my family.which I love cause I got to make a lot of my own decision bye myself so don’t give up now.

  • Riyahj, You are not alone. We are here to help you through this. Chat with one of our HopeCoaches anytime…day or night about what’s going on in your life at http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp

    • Riyaj Nadaf


  • Please please don’t give up. There is hope and help. Please chat with us anytime 24/7 https://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp/ We care about you and want to help you get back to that place of happiness and confidence.

  • 24 yr women

    I am in a violent relationship everyone knows the police know my parents know due to there being so many Break ups and police called I always go back despite what’s been done and said its like they have a control over me and know that if they beg enough I’ll be back the longest had been 4 week break up for the 100 th time iv even ran from my own home I have kids and now I feel the only we I can be free is to hang myself but thinking of my children has stopped me in the past now I’m not sure sure it’s enough. As bad as that sounds I feel pointless hopeless I tell people and I’ll I get is your selfish and you won’t do it you don’t have the balls thinking I’m attention seeking I’m not ! I’m asking for help please please help me I have told doctors everything I m on antidepressants that’s all they ever do throw pills at me

  • We care! We want to encourage you and support you. Please chat with a HopeCoach. We are here for you 24/7 and it’s free and private – https://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp/

  • Holly

    I’m feeling really suicidal right now, I just don’t want to live anymore and I feel there’s no point living if I can’t settle with what is happening around me, the world is awful, I don’t wanna see it no more

  • That was really a hurtful thing for your mom to say. A loving parent would say how thankful they are that did not abort you and what a blessing you are. She sounds like she has a lot of unhappiness in her own life that has nothing to do with you. You are valuable and the fact you are alive means you have a purpose. If you want to chat more about this we are here for you 24/7 – https://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp/ Chatting with a HopeCoach is free and totally private. We believe in you!

  • Daniel

    Me thinking about ending it all. Does that make me a attention seeker. Yes I’ve had a drink tonight open and honest.
    My life is in peace and struggling to see a end to this. Tonight is especially bad. I dot want to be branded a attention seeker nut am really struggling to keep things together ..

  • SiSi

    What is a contract for life partner? I googled it and found nothing. I’m getting worse every day. I’ve seen a thousand articles like this and none help. I’m not gonna kill myself anytime soon but I’m scared that it’s eventually gonna be the way I die. I don’t know.

  • Becca💙

    Just never give up on god he will always be there for you no matter what trust and believe in him always for he is always there for you 🙂 and he will make everything better trust me things might be bad at times but he has a bright, amazing future for you 🙂

  • Does it matter?

    I’m 19 years old and I’ve been struggling with this constant sadness for as long as I can remember, but recently it has become so much worse. I have no idea who I am anymore or who I once was, I just know I’ve become everything I hate. I’ve been fighting it for so long, and I never wanted to come to this, but I can’t do it much longer. It gets harder to get out of bed every day. People can argue it with me as much as they want, but I truly see no reason I should stay here. I never want my parents to deal with the burden of my death, and that has always been enough to stop me from following through with it, but that doesn’t even seem to phase me anymore. I’m so tired, I wish I could just disappear without anyone noticing.

  • _Hey_Its_ Jules_

    If you feel sucidal, watch Pewdiepie or any youtuber that makes you laugh… Trust me, it helps 😉

  • Cc

    I’m scared admitting to myself that I do have suicidal thoughts..but I do. Often times,I try. I only stop when I see or hear my 9yr old son. I’m scared that if the time comes that I’m in an argument and my son is not there that I will really kill myself

  • We are simply here to listen, encourage, and provides extra resources if you need them. No one will come to our door unless you are in serious immediate danger.

  • I am so sorry that happened, but thankful you are alive. It sounds like you have friends who care a lot about you and did not want you to kill yourself. And, yes, sometimes parents don’t understand but they can always learn. Do you have a school counselor you could talk to about how you are feeling? We are always here for you at TheHopeLine® and can connect you with other resources that may help you.

  • EVERY loss is noticed. There are many people whose lives are touched by yours. You matter. Please don’t give up.

  • No I can’t put my name. Sorry

    I’m only 10 years old and already thinking of suicide ;~; can I have help please??

  • Féinmharú

    I cut. Every single second of every single day I want to destroy myself. I hate me so much. The way I look, the way I talk, the way I can never do anything right. My wife tells me I ruin everything. I ruin everything. This plays over and over inside my head. I’m a worthless turd and I just want it all to go away. Cut and cut and cut until I’m drained. I can’t take this anymore. I can’t.

  • Frank

    Might sound crazy but what if I actually like hurting myself?

  • Chandler

    Well I tell you guys something,I have this thing called vcf or 22q with is kill me and make my life hell . So all you guys or don’t have a disabled, stop thinking your life is so bad because you can change it. For my I can’t and I’m sick and this I have to live though and I think help is a better place for me . So when I get up good by to all of you .

  • Lewymar

    my parents abuse me and im sick and tired of this my whole life and i just want to end it i dont care about the consequences i dont care

  • Peter

    I’m feeling very lost atm. I’ve been thinking almost non stop of ending right now. My antidepressants are not working. I lost my job due to nothing of my own fault they saw an opportunity let a high timer go and took it damn right to work bs. I cannot think straight and having a constant panic attack that has lasted almost 3 weeks now. I have been having tunnel vision and surreal vision. I dont do drugs except for what is percribed I’m 38 I don’t have much of a mind left and have been considering admitting myself so I don’t hurt myself. My father doesn’t understand that I suffer from panic disorder, being bi polar, and severe depression even though he was one that had me put on meds when I was a child because I had twitches. Everyday when I wake up it is because of the panic attack that cold rushing feeling in my chest wakes me up when my metrazapine wears off. Since my father and step mother are out of town till October and I have key to their house I have been really thinking of just walking over and putting a gun to my head and pull the trigger. He is an avid gun nut and there is a loaded weapon behind every door. My insurance is atm but I’d much rather go somewhere to be safe. I know being in hospital will suck but it’s better than the latter. My mind is at its end and I’m driving my friends and self crazy. My thoughts won’t stop rushing,I’m scared and don’t want to make the ultimate mistake. I’d rather hurt myself than anyone else because it’s not their fault.

  • Alice

    This article helped me calm down a bit. I’m still suicidal but not as irrational as I was a minute ago. Thanks so much to whoever wrote this.

  • You can chat with a HopeCoach anytime 24/7 – https://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp/. It is private and we have resources we can give you to help you.

  • jdbwjr

    I just want to die. I can’t take the stress anymore. I hate my life

    • Candy Cares

      Alright stop that, you KNOW that’s not gonna solve anything. Just take some deep breaths and think about all of the positives in life. But if you can’t find any, think about the people who love you! If you can’t think of any, then just think of me, because I care about you, I really do. This may seem strange, but it’s true, and I hate it when people talk like this. So if you can’t find any other reason to live, at least think about living for me, would you do that for me please?

  • Brianna, thank you for encouraging us!!! 🙂

  • Naw bro

    I’ve been thinking bout suicide since 6th grade n I’m a senior but never came around doin it till I see how my life goes but I know its bout to happen. family, friends, therapy, ain’t none of that work on me.

  • Candy Cares

    Well if it’s hard then why not stop wanting to do that? Besides nothing good would come from that anyways. I know it hurts to struggle, but it hurts even more to lose a loved one, think about how much the people you know would miss you if you were gone! It’s never to late to start anew ya know!

  • Mathieu Bishara

    your prayers will be answered but no in the way you excpect i thought the same way once until i prayed it helps a lot just believe in god with all of your heart and you’ll feel loved back

  • Er Himanshu Sagar

    i want to do Suicide i lost my all hope i i am 24 year old i break my family trust . i have no any friend no i am not able to share my feeling to any one i never share coz i am not like to share i always thing what they think if i tell tham about my problem that why i never tell any one not share my mom an dad and sister i say i am in deep deprestion i lost all hope and also lost to my aim andd most important think I LOST THAM WHICH THE ONLY HOPE TO MY LIFE SHE LEAVE ME I LOST MY LOVE WHICH MOST PAINFULL TO ME i not understand what i do now

    • I am so sorry you have had so many losses recently. Please don’t give up, we are here for you. You can chat with a HopeCoach right now – https://www.thehopeline.com/GetHelp Go to this page or simply click on the “Chat Now” button. We care about you.

  • Highlandsparrow

    I have been suicidal off/on since I was 9 (I am 36 now). There have been at least 5 suicides in my family, going back at least as far as the 1800s. When I look around at all the hate and evil in the world, it makes me really not want to be a part of it. When I think of all the abandonment and rejection I have felt my entire life, it makes me feel I am unworthy of love.

    I am in a very bad situation emotionally right now. See, I recently gave up everything I had (life savings, job, car, furniture, apartment, etc.) to move to another country to be with a man to whom I had been committed in a long-distance relationship for six years. In less than a year after my move here, he dumped me, and now spends his nights and weekends out partying with other women and all of his friends while I am left alone in the apartment. If I ask him any questions about his behavior, he threatens to kick me out onto the street. My flight out of this country is not for another two weeks and I have been completely isolated in the guest bedroom for over a month now while he has a grand ole time. I still love him.

    Life is hard, life is unfair, and people are inexplicably cruel. The only things that keep me from plunging a knife into my heart are (1) my love for God (2) my fear of hell (3) my love for my dog that I brought here with me and (4) the worry that my mother would kill herself immediately after learning what I had done (5) the fear that I would have ruined God’s plan for me.

    So my advice to anyone feeling like I do is to come up with concrete reasons why you should not kill yourself and hang onto them for dear life.

  • Whitney, please chat with us at TheHopeLine®. We are here for you and we care about what you are going through right now. HopeCoaches are here 24/7 – https://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp/

  • Anastasia, It sounds like you are going through a lot right now and we want you to know we care about you and you are worthy. I’m proud of you for talking about how you are feeling and continuing to talk about it is a step in the right direction and the best thing to do. Would you be willing to chat online with a HopeCoach? It would be a one-on-one, private conversation and they would listen and help you through this. You are truly appreciated, loved and will make a difference in this world. Please give life a chance and talk to a HopeCoach at http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp

  • Thank you so much for your kind words, Whitney! I’ll pass along your encouraging message to the HopeCoaches.

  • I am sorry your family is being cold-hearted like that. We believe you should always take suicidal thoughts seriously and that it is important to talk about it with someone. I am glad you found our website. We would love to chat with you about your struggles. We are here for you 24/7 – https://www.thehopeline.com/GetHelp/

  • Sarah, it hurts my heart to hear how much you are struggling right now. Depression is a real physical thing and sometimes needs a variety of solutions like counseling, exercise, medication, and just like you mentioned…real connections with people. You are right about electronics making people less connected, but there are ways to find the kind of people who do want to have deep friendships. I am so thankful you have not given up. Would you be willing to talk to us on chat? Maybe we can help come up with some solutions, give you some real resources, and we really want to be a real connection for you. Please chat with us – https://www.thehopeline.com/GetHelp/ We also have a partner site where you can post your prayer request – https://www.theprayerzone.com/ I am praying for you now.

  • Please call the suicide hotline at 1-800-273-8255. Please don’t give up. Do you have someone you can trust like a teacher or school counselor? It’s really important to talk with someone about your feelings.

  • You can start by contacting us at TheHopeLine® – https://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp/ We can help you think of safe people in your life and we can connect you to other people, like an email mentor. We care about you.

  • Please hit the chat button and talk with a HopeCoach – https://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp/ We are here for you and we care.

  • Irrelevant

    I just want to tell everyone that you are beautiful in your own unique way. You deserve to be happy and to smile and to see the violet sky when you get home from work/school and think: “life is beautiful” and to make someone laugh and to be goofy sometimes just because you wanted to be a little weird and to read beautiful books and watch movies and visit incredibly beautiful places and do what makes you happy and anything and EVERYTHING. You deserve it because you deserve life. Just be good to others, be polite and kind and make people smile. Never be mean and never hurt someone. We are all good deep inside we are all born good. Be a good person, that’s my advice to all of you out there who might be reading this. I am leaving this placebecause i must, i don’t have any other way. But don’t leave if you’re not sure that you haven’t experienced everything and haven’t tried everything. I love you people. I really do love the world and the nature and us humans very fondly. I just don’t love my self anymore, i do not see a meaning of my own existence. But i guess that’s okay. That isn’t that relevant now after all. I came here to tell you that you deserve happiness. I wish you the best of luck in life people. I love you all. Be good.

  • Atmey

    1. Reach Out for Help

    Nope, I hate help, I hate others, my mom always meddling, why did you do this, why did you do that, just shut up and leave me alone.

    2. Refer to your Safety Plan

    Great, another form to fill, I filled up 20 forms in the past months and I don’t care for filling another one.

    3. Remove whatever can harm you at that very moment.

    I don’t have a choice, military service is mandatory and I will go to prison. viva middle east

    4. Turn to other Activities
    Same as above.

  • Annoymous girl

    Am I tried to jump off a balcony at a disco when I was drunk I was so scared and thought the only way out was to die it seemed like the only thing I wasn’t scared of anymore my friend caught me while I was trying to put my leg over and pushed me against a wall I kept scratching my legs and grabbing my throat as if I was choking myself cause I wanted it all to go away I had a panic attack before this and was shaking on the floor I’ve cut myself before and recently have again but this time on my ankles I don’t want to tell my mom I feel so guilty over everything I’ve put her and my dad through already I’m starting counselling on Saturday but I’m scared to talk to her incase she tells my mom any of this I don’t want her to know I tried to kill myself because one of our neighbours committed suicide recently and she was upset about it and my dad he thinks it’s selfish I know I’m not suicidal sober but I’m scared I feel like I need to tell someone but I don’t want to worry people I don’t know who to talk to

    • We are here for you 24/7 and connect you with resources to help you through this. Please chat with us so we can help. Simply click on the “chat now” button to reach a HopeCoach or go to this link – https://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp/

    • Counselors are bound by privacy laws and can’t tell your parents your conversation.. The counselor is a safe place to be honest and real. I am so glad you have someone to go to. We are here for you, too, if you want to chat. Click the orange “chat now” button to connect with a HopeCoach anytime 24/7. We have some eBooks that can help you understand yourself and hear stories of people with similar struggles and how they got through it. https://www.thehopeline.com/ebooks/
      Also, we have an interview the rock musician Lacey Sturm, https://www.thehopeline.com/my-interview-with-lacey-sturm-videos/, who was suicidal and has a lot of wisdom and encouragement to share.

  • Unknown

    I tired to kill myself when I was drunk and I don’t know who to tell I’m scared

    • I know you are really struggling. You are being abused and you need someone safe to talk to. Do you have a school counselor or a teacher that you feel you can trust? We have several eBooks that are a good place to begin sorting through your feelings and what you are experiencing. Here is one on depression – http://info.thehopeline.com/depression-ebook and this one is on eating disorders – http://info.thehopeline.com/eatingdisorders-ebook
      Reading the books and listening to audio clips of real stories will help you know that you are not alone in these struggles. There is hope.

  • just me

    I told my friends about my depression multiple times and they have either told me that i was weird or completely ignored me. They left me. I feel like such a burden. The only friend of mine that is still there for me lives in a different state. I am not sure how much longer i can go

  • Rosalina the mom who couldn’t

    I have tried to fix myself with those who I am happy around most, I was abandoned in Idaho 4 years ago. I now am a mother, I am also a danger to myself. I am trapped in my own thoughts, I tried taking my dog and daughter on a walk to help escape myself, and I now have dreams of killing myself, everyday, I day dream of myself drowning. I don’t know what to do anymore, I don’t want to die. I want to be better, but I can not get myself to see a Dr. I want out. I want to be done with this. I need to be done.

  • Keturah

    My name is Keturah. I know exactly how you feel. I always had to catch a ride everywhere. Sometimes I would be stranded for hours. I bought my first car last year and most of my depression went away. But then I crashed my car back in August on a rainy day while taking the express way. I don’t have any friends. I’ve tried but many people don’t understand me because I’m very positive and enlightened. I’m single. I don’t have the connections I want at work either. My supervisors have stolen ideas from me and used them as their own, or I’ve been excused from working my way up to a promotion due to favoritism. I live in a poor city. Everyone here is struggling. I wish we could be friends. Just to have each other to talk to. I’m debating killing myself. Just because I’m so tired of trying to be a good woman and trying to be a good friend. I’m in so much pain and sometimes I feel like some of us are just broken. Some of us live our entire lives feeling like jellyfish or black sheep because maybe we’re not supposed to be here. Maybe we got mixed up with a different dimension. Life has always felt unnecessarily hard. Like why did I have to be abused? Bullied? In a car wreck? Cheated on? Fat? Lonely with zero friends? Maybe I should just leave this earth. I would be sad if I didn’t try to reach out to you, but with my luck you probably won’t see this or even reply. I wish you comfort though… as much as I want my life to just end… I don’t wish suicidal thoughts on anyone ever.

  • Please click the “chat now” button and talk to a HopeCoach about how you are feeling. Please don’t give up. We are here for you and we care about what you are going through.

  • At TheHopeLine we believe it is important to talk to someone about what you have been through. We know it is not about just changing one thought. For more information on abuse we have an eBook with real stories and real help- http://info.thehopeline.com/sexual-abuse

  • Yes, one of the signs of depression is not being able to enjoy things that would normally make you happy. Do you have someone you can talk to? HopeCoaches are available 24/7 and we can connect you with counseling and other resources. We are here for you. Simply click the “chat now” button or go to this page – https://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp/

  • We are definitely here to comfort you. Please click the “chat now” button or go to this link – https://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp/ to chat with a HopeCoach. We are here to listen, understand, and help.

  • I am glad you are reaching out for help. Do you have other adults in your life you can trust – like a teacher, grandparent, friend’s parent? It is important to have a safe person to talk to. Our chat line is open 24/7 and it is totally private and safe. It is not a phone call, but texting instead. Here is the link https://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp/ Hang in there!

  • You are important and you are worthy. We care and we are here to listen. Chat online with one of our HopeCoaches and they will listen and help you through this at http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp

  • world sucks

    It just suck to live in this filthy world

  • I hope and pray you are still here. Please chat with a HopeCoach. We care about you and are here for you 24/7. Click the “chat now” button or go to this link – https://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp/

  • Celeste Mapling

    What if you start questioning God’s existence… What else do you have to hold on to?

  • Shazam

    I understand how you feel, and I’m a hypocrite as I say this because of my own plans of suicide, but a few years ago, the last time I was suicidal, I felt like I was a waste of a being. My not so wealthy family was paying for my tuition when I’m not a smart as my brother, so I thought if I die, they can financially support my brother more and be more comfortable because I felt like a waste of space and not needed.

    But then I decided I wanted to try something before committing to suicide. So I told my family how I felt and then reached out for therapy. Sometimes telling your family is a hit or miss. Sometimes they’ll try to convince you of your worth and depending on your stage of depression, all that might seem meaningless. Which I why therapy is also important. And if you feel like your family doesn’t actually care about you, try telling a friend you trust. Or just push yourself into try therapy. Really, finding the right therapist saved my life. (Make sure they’re right for you tho) and being completely honest and vulnerable with your therapist, which may be new.

    But like the ripple effect, your existence has already changed the course of time in some way, so in the bigger scheme of things, your existence matters, and quite a lot.

  • Virgin

    Ohh god i dont want to kill my self but…

  • Afraid

    I can’t reach out for help anymore.

  • bb

    No matter how beautiful you are, it doesn’t matter. People will always look at someone else. Until you find the right person who loves you. Maybe you have qualities your sisters do not have. You may have a special soul and purpose.

  • Xyz

    I’m usually a level headed person and I never thought I’d be put in a situation where I feel so weak. I feel like harming myself. I believe I’m in love with someone who doesn’t love me back. It hurts so much. It’s nothing like I’ve ever felt. The pain is so consuming. We were close and now it’s like I’m just being ignored. Things have changed. I know this happens to a lot of people but I don’t know why it’s affecting me so much. It’s killing me. All I think about is what I did wrong and why things are the way they are. I can’t live without this person. I’m afraid of death but I just want to harm myself because I feel I deserve it. I know this sounds immature. Judge me but I just don’t care anymore. I’m tired and I don’t know how to deal with it anymore. I can’t even get away from this person because we’re in the same class. The contact is unavoidable… And most of all because, she’s my best friend.

  • A.

    I feel guilty going to someone and telling them I’m having suicidal thoughts. I feel like thats such a horrible thing to put on someone, to put that kind of pressure on them. Id rather keep it inside than give someone that burden.

  • Kevin Martinez

    I know people say don’t kill yourself because you are worth it, but I have tried with all my heart and all my patients to find someone who would love me for the way I am. I just want to know if anyone know a truly good reason not to commit suicide besides the “this is only temporary” or “give yourself a break” etc

    • Kevin, Thank you for reaching out to talk. It’s important that you continue talking about how you are feeling. Suicide is final. Please give yourself a chance. You are not alone…A HopeCoach will listen and help at http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp.

  • lonely guy

    i am 24 guy i wish i was never born i never achieved anything in my life and i will never find happiness and i dont talk and i am dumb no talent lazy brain i want to kill my self in the future i guess no help in my country and i have anxiety why me god? i have no friends all i have is my twin brother and my parents 🙁

  • Icanttellyoumyname

    I have had enough of my life, my parents say they love me, but they don’t, I cannot be my real self for fear of being disowned as well (due to their harsh dislike of people with my sexuality), my work has taken a turn for the worst and has made home life miserable and my mother suffers from depression and apprently cries whenever I leave the house which means my father has to deal with and then angrily puts it all down on me.

    I have had enough, its time to end it and switch it all off, I have nothing to live for anymore.

  • ashish gupta

    i dont want to die
    But still my susidal feelings follieing me. Help me i want to cry i want to want i dont know help me please

  • Love always, Charlie

    IM having a bad time. Ive been having these thoughts for a long time. I always feel alone because I am. I have bearly any friends at school. In class I just sit alone becase noone wants to talk to me. My friends around my house hate me. So every time i look out my window im reminded of this because one lives across the street from me. I breakdowns all the time. I never wan to leave me room. I just go my hair cut today, so when I saw my exfriend across the street i didnt think she hates me but when I said I got my haircut she just said “I dont care” really meanly and that has just stuck with me. Ive cut myself before and im trying my best not to do it again. but its hard.

  • E.M.

    I have lived with suicidal thoughts for almost a year now. Nothing is working. I have talked to friends about it and they try to help and I appreciate it. But no one understands. NO ONE. They all think that they do and that they are going to save me but they just can’t. They don’t understand. I appreciate all those who do and we are all in this together. But sometimes I just want to end it. I hate myself for who I am and how I think, I really do. I just can’t shake the feeling of dread in my chest. I don’t know how much longer I can last.

    • E.M. We want you to know we care and we are here to listen and understand what you are going through. You are valuable and you matter. Please chat with one of our HopeCoaches about the dread you are feeling. They will listen and help you through this. Go to http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp to chat anytime.

  • Larry Johnson

    I am truly on the brink… I’ve made many mistakes so, now im on the verge of getting kicked out of my place no one will hire me, and so much i cant even get into right now. Every day get worse, no words can really now but a prayer for larry would do wonders. My family is the only reason i haven’t done it yet.

  • Mountain Guy

    I’m having trouble at home. My wife is very hard on me. I feel like I’m on eggshells 24/7. We have so much to be thankful for & she just treats me like I’m a piece of trash. I try, I really do. I actually do provide, pay bills, keep my kid happy. We have such a beautiful, perfect 15 month old daughter, and it kills me to realize I feel this way. We live in a great house, have a few nice cars, tons of grownup toys like nice bikes, motorcycles, snowmobiles, skis, boards, etc. We really are technically “Living the dream”. I’m not an unattractive person. Yet…..more often than not….I spend too much time defending myself from unfair assessments, trying….begging to be treated nicely. Wondering why she’s so angry. After everything I’ve done, which I’d like to think is at least above average as far as husbands and fathers go…..I’m left feeling like I’m a worthless piece of crap, and my wife and kid could just move on after my departure. Yes…..I’m tired, and sad. I’m unable to comprehend how, with so much to be thankful for, I’m part of such a miserable situation. Frankly….I’m losing my desire to continue. I’m scared….and having tremendous anxiety. I honestly feel like my wife would be better off without me here, and in turn, would be a better mother to our daughter. At times…..that seems to justify her growing up without her biological father. I don’t know what to do.

  • Lonely and scare

    I just want to die I feel alone I love my baby daddy and all he dose is mentally abuses me and it kills me because my son needs his daddy he tells me to go kill my self all the time I’m already suicidal because Im bypoler I don’t know what to do any more

  • Nobody

    I recently had a big storm and had gotten a tornado warning. It was getting bad. We all gathered in my bathroom with my 7 animals and I fa mily members in the house . My brother was crying and shaking and panting. Seeing this… was unreal. I eventually started having a panic attack and wanting to die to make this stop… and a horrible thought can into my mind… “What I my family dies” my heart dropped . I prayed and prayed this wouldnt happen . We had been informed that the storm had missed us. . Hours later I am laying in bed. And the thought comes back ” what if my family dies ” my stomach churned,because I knew it can happen again to me. I just wanted to die.

  • rendani peace

    I am loosing it bit by bit,I tried to be strong for the past few months fighting with these thoughts but I think I am failing to control them instead of controlling them they are controlling me, I see death as an only option I cant live and face my failures.

    • Please don’t give up. Have you tried chatting with a HopeCoach? Simply click our “chat now” button anytime 24/7. It is free and confidential. Please let us help.

  • me

    i am about to kill myself

  • Wont say name

    I heard death is peaceful, from the loneliness and guilt i’m feeling. Someone to open u to, someone to be a good son.. I wish i could give what my parents want from me, life’s a such a mess. indeed they dont want me dead, but what good i am doing by wasting their money

  • Barb DeGarmo

    I Have been Fighting Suicidal And Depression For A Very Long Time My counselor Know That I Have Been cutting My Self For Along Time I Have Been in The Hospital it Did Not Help Me Being in The Hospital This Time Ok.I Am Really Suicidal I Really Wanted To Commit Suicidal Tonight

    • When you are struggling with these overwhelming feelings please chat with a HopeCoach. We are here for you 24/7. Just click the “chat now” button. Please don’t give up.

  • silvia

    my parents hate me and tried to kill me. what’s the point in living. i dont have any special talents. im not roch. im never gonna fund someone who loves me. i wanna kill myself. no more winters. no more summers. mo more springs. just skyfalls.

    • Silvia, please chat with a HopeCoach today. You do have special qualities, but maybe it is just hard to see that right now. We are here to listen and help 24/7 – just click the “chat now” button or go to this link – https://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp

  • Yaya

    I’m going to kill myself. I hate my life.😭😭😭😔😭😭😭😭

    • Yaya, please don’t give up. Try chatting with a HopeCoach before you do anything. We are available 24/7 – just click the “chat now” button or go to this link https://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp We are here for you and we want to help.

  • ian

    im a teenager. sometimes i feel really suicidal. people treat me like garbage. I do everything to help them and they repay me by beating me. my parents dont care even the teacher plz tell me what to do.

  • I am not sure

    In the beginning I was bullyed and called fat among other things I was sexually molested at the age of 6 and the at the age of 8 I was touched by the counselor that was trying to help me cool with my mom and dad’s costs then at the age of 9 I got sexually touched by my dad.” I am tired boss tired of people being ugly to each other” jhon coffee I want this pain gone I want it to end

  • Les

    I have been enduring the lost of a beloved for 4 years. There is no replacement. I am very extremely lonely. Forlorn. I want execute myself because every single day, every single moment I felt tearful, I felt empty. This will not change and we knew that from experience. I am 47 years old. Changes came when you are happy, joyful.

  • Nohope,life doesn’t get better

    I am lost, completely i can’t go out of the house , i can’t study, i don’t have any friends, nobody that likes me, i lack social skills, i am ugly and dumb and everyone i know wants me out of their lives, i am poor and i can’t afford decent clothes for work, and people hate me and avoid me for some reason and i don’t have money to afford meds and i am physically ill too..i hate this life and my heart hurts because my family and relatives only care for themselves and they distance themselves from me..all i do is cry and hurt myself and i am just waiting right now for something bad to happen to me, something too much for me to handle so i can kill myself.. maybe its better if i am gone i know nobody would miss me anyways thanks for reading my comment.

  • Luis M.

    I was so encouraged by this site until they mentioned God. Religion (religious hypocrisy) is the main reason I want to kill myself.

    • Luis, I think you brought up a great point about religion. Religious hypocrisy is the “pretense of having a virtuous character, moral or religious beliefs or principles, etc., that one does not really possess.” Probably a lot of religious people act like this. The difference in the Christian religion is the acknowledgement that no one is perfect, we all have struggles and failures, and so the Bible says “for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and all are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus.” (Romans 3)
      In Christianity our great hope and peace is that we have a God who loves us unconditionally. He can see all of our imperfections and loves us and has grace and kindness for us.
      If you want to continue this dialogue, which I think is a really important one, we have HopeCoaches who are always available 24/7 who can answer your questions and also listen to your personal experiences with religion. Sometimes it really helps to talk to someone about what you have been through. Click the “chat now” banner on our site in the header or go to this link – https://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp We are here for you and we care.

  • Bill Bailey

    See this is the thing, everyone says oh it will be better and ih hang in there, oh and the best someone out there loves you- well guess what? No they don’t. I am almost 40 have nobody, no money, no job thru no fault of my own and think about killing myself everyday. The only thing that stops me is my dog. But once he is gone, i won’t be too far behind. Lets see someone give me a reason to keep living. And not the same it will get better speech, cause i am old enough now to know that is not true. Once my dog goes the only thing that loves me will be gone. I am too old to meet someone new, wait until i love them then, have a kid i shoulda had that done by now. Thats all i ever wanted was a family but i also aint the type to have a kid when i am mad old and not be able to do things with the kid cause i am all old an shht. That ain’t fair to the kid. I wasted from 18-28 being with the same girl who upped and left one day. That was my one chance. Looking at pictures of cute animals may make it ok for the time but when thats over i gotta go back to the reality that i am a loser and there really is nothing for me in the future so whats the point? Its not gonna get better, i literally havent got anyone to talk to, there is nothing that can possibly happen besides winning the lottery for millions that can make me happy.

  • Darryl

    I have no hope any more. Im loosing everything I’ve worked for because of my depression. I can’t even leave my home with out having anxiety anymore. My girlfriend left me because of my illness and I found out she is pregnant with my baby. How Im I suppose to take care of them if I cannot take care of myself. I have tried to kill myself with pills but vomited them up. I tried to use my car by putting a hose in the muffler into the window of the car but I just woke up with an empty tank. Im about to hang myself in my living room. I’ve written my good bye’s to the only people I love and I feel my time is coming to an end on this world.

    • I am so thankful you have reached out for help here at TheHopeline! Have you been to see a doctor? Depression can be caused by a chemical imbalance. It is curable, but it is important to get physically checked out to get to the bottom of it. Please don’t give up. Your child does not want to grow up without a daddy. We had a little girl post recently that she wanted to die because her dad died before she was born.
      I believe you can get well. Please chat with a HopeCoach online so that we can connect you with resources and listen more in depth to what you are going through right now. Please don’t give up.

  • Heda D

    Can I get help?????please

  • Heda D

    Please help meeee

  • Name

    I dont care about anything anymore. I am constantly afraid of everything in my mind. I have lost that happy person i was and i will never get it back. I cant eat or sleep or concentrate. Im so tired. Im riddled with anxiety. I dont want to feel it anymore. I want to be sedated to unconsciousness. Im starting to withdraw from society.

    • It sounds like you are struggling with real depression. That happy person is still in there. It is important to talk to someone about how you are feeling so that you can get the help you need. Our HopeCoaches are available 24/7 to help you sort through this and move forward to get the happy person in you back. Just click the “chat now” button or go to this link https://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp

  • Anon

    Hello. I do’t know what to do. I feel so empty and negative. Even though I have friends, I just can’t fully trust them for some reason. I don’t have any past trauma or anything so I don’t know why I’m having these trust issues. Is there something wrong with me.

  • Guard Rail

    I’m so down and tried of my misfortune and screw ups.being broke and in debit.I just don’t want to be here.it would be better for family and friends.I mess up everything I do is bad.and I won’t ask for help because a man doesn’t do that

  • Unworthy

    I just want to die..