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Why Do People End Their Life by Suicide?

The very idea that someone wants to die is frightening. As a result, suicide is not an easy topic to discuss for many people. But talking about suicide does save lives. If one person can be saved from suicide by talking about it with someone, it is worth it; especially if that someone is you.

I am amazed at the many powerful and wise comments I have received from you about suicide. I asked you to tell me why you think people contemplate suicide and you had some amazing insights. It is clear that it is usually not just one thing that compels someone to feel suicidal. You said it is a combination of a lot of things, including:

  • pain
  • loneliness
  • rejection
  • abuse
  • deep depression
  • guilt
  • depression
  • helplessness
  • hopelessness

suicide whyMore than anything, I believe people who live with suicidal ideation feel hopeless. They are hurting so badly and want nothing more than for the pain to end. Unfortunately, but they cannot imagine the pain ever going away. They cannot see the light at the end of the very dark and lonely tunnel they have found themselves traveling down. Have you ever felt this way?

It is not uncommon for a person’s circumstances or their self-image to cause someone to think negatively about themselves. Often times, people consider suicide because they are unable to find any reason to make living worthwhile. They think their problems are unsolvable and they feel completely out of control. I believe first and foremost, hopelessness is a serious spiritual problem rooted in lies and faulty thinking. Anytime you believe lies about yourself, you are listening to the wrong voices.

Jennifer said suicide has been a daily struggle for the past nine years due to being sexually abused. I feel like suicide is the only option I have left, the only chance at peace I’ll ever have. It’s as if something will always be missing and life will never be quite right. There is no denying that the pain of sexual abuse can be tremendous. But the abuse is not Jennifer’s fault. She is the victim, but she does not have to punish herself for her abuser’s actions. Additionally, many people just like Jennifer have overcome abuse through talking about it with a professional counselor. Jennifer, you can be one of them!
Mandy said, Suicide is the result of irrational thinking in the illness of DEPRESSION Click To Tweet

Thank you, Mandy, for bringing to light the very serious issue of depression. Depression is a real illness and needs real meaningful help. To learn more about depression, please read this guest blog from our partner, Centerstone. At TheHopeLine® we have trained HopeCoaches ready to answer your questions and connect you with Centerstone or our other trusted partners. Click here to connect now.

Even rock stars struggle with pain, depression, and suicide, but there is always HOPE. Check out this video by lead singer Jake Luhrs from “August Burns Red:”

If you or a friend need support right now, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255, for free confidential, 24/7 help. Head here for a list of crisis centers around the world. For additional help, please visit the suicide prevention resource page.

For more on what to do if you are having suicidal thoughts or if you know someone who is considering suicide, check out TheHopeLine’s eBook: Understanding Suicide.

Dawson McAllister Dawson McAllister (born in New Kensington, Pennsylvania) is an American speaker, radio host, and author. He is the founder of Dawson McAllister Association and TheHopeLine and host of the national radio program Dawson McAllister Live, which is aired on Sunday nights. Dawson has been speaking to and in support of teenagers and young adults for over 40 years.
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  • Lindsey

    I am tired. I’m tired of working two jobs yet still can’t afford to move out on my own, let alone pay all my bills. I am tired of missing my Dad who passed pretty suddenly 3yrs ago. I’m tired of my boyfriend of 5 yrs verbally assaulting me every time I say or do the wrong thing (everyday). I recently broke my right ankle and I’ve had to really rely on him for everything lately, he says he doesn’t mind helping me but then he screams at me if I ask him for help too often. I’m tired of living in my boyfriends parents basement, with no real means of being able to move out in the foreseeable future. His parents are hoarders so bc of that I am embarrassed to have friends over. I am tired of trying to clean our home just to have it filled up with trash just as quickly as I get one room clean. I am tired of having to hide the verbal abuse from my family and friends, all because he doesn’t want other people to think ill of him. I really feel like maybe I was only put on this earth to be shit on by most of the people I love. It often feels like I have no other choice.

    • TheHopeLine Team

      Lindsey, We sent you an email and hope you have talked to someone about how your feeling of wanting to end your life. We want you to know that you matter and you are valuable no matter how you feel. There is only one person in this world like you and you are unique and loved. Please continue to seek out help by calling us at 800.394.4673 or chatting with a HopeCoach at http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp. You can also find help at the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255

  • Lindsey

    I’m 32 yrs old. I have never been married, and I have no kids. It feels like all of my friends are getting married, buying houses, having kids and making good enough money that they only have to work one job. I’m tired of working my ass off only to have nothing to show for it. I often think that I am a burden to everyone. My boyfriend always tells me that I’m stupid, pathetic, crazy, he even told me today that I’m a cancer that is just sucking the life out of him and he is just tired of dealing with me. I feel totally trapped. Like nothing I do will ever be good enough for him. I’ve never cheated on him, never stolen, never asked him to buy me anything more than dinner or cigarettes here and there. I don’t go out with my friends anymore because he thinks I’ll go out and cheat on him. I never go anywhere without him except to work. I am afraid to tell my family about the way he treats me bc I want them to like him. It’s so hard to keep all this to myself all the time. I am embarrassed that I let him treat me like this, I wish I was confident enough to leave him and move on with my life. I don’t have the money to move out on my own anyway. Even if I did leave him, I don’t think I could stand to be alone again. I feel like at least if I died, I wouldn’t have to feel so sad and alone anymore. I can’t take the abuse, the depression, the sadness or the loneliness anymore. Sure some people might be sad, but I’m sure they’d all get over it eventually. I love them all so much, my mom my granddad, my brother, my aunts and uncles, and maybe even my boyfriend. I just hope that if i do this, they’ll take solace in knowing that I’m no longer in pain, and I’m safe, and nobody could ever hurt me again. I can’t hang on much longer.

    • christina

      Lindsey..i hope yr still here to read this…no one ‘eventually gets over it’ if u did it….u are being abused and every second u stay in that world u are permitting the abuse….get out of there immediately…..seek the Lord for strength…there are agencies to offer shelter. .U seem to spk highly if ye family..dont u think they wd help u?…pray pray pray and pray some more…i know from where i speak…God did not put u here to endure this abuse…ask God for strength and courage…simeone out

      • christina

        Hit post too soon…
        Tried to say..someone out there needs you.
        Dont give in or give up.
        Life gets better..have faith on yrself and mostly in God.
        God bless xo

    • Joe

      You shouldn’t have to let him abuse you.You deserve better.

  • Lindsey

    I’m thinking of doing it because I love them, I don’t want to be a burden on them anymore.

    • AFRIEND

      I dont know if youve come back to this sight to read if anyone has replied to you. You are not unnoticed.

      • David Hernaez

        I just want to tell everyone that there is hope for everyone. I lost a son on July 5,2014
        I have 3 sons living and my wife. Its a struggle everyday going through the motions and now my oldest is having problems ever since this tragedy . Just pray to god to help you . Talk to a friend, a pastor, a co worker anyone life does get better.. peace be with you … David..(nola)

  • Sally

    I am a 54 year old mother of 2 girls. The day of their births was the best days of my life. I felt ecstatic and so filled with joy! My daughters would never be a burden to me. I love them unconditionally which means in any situation or circumstance. Your mom feels so much love for you. Reach out to her. The year ahead may be the best days of your life. Surround yourself with positive people. Find a church. Jesus gives us hope. Take baby steps of positive change. Each step will lead to a brighter tomorrow. Never give up. You deserve the very best life has to offer. God bless you!

  • Bev

    My father committed suicide 4 years ago in his bedroom with a shotgun loaded with a Turkey load. I don’t understand why. We are a small family and he was my best friend. He did not leave a note. We all went to church he was saved he was the best father my sister and I could ever be blessed with. He was a Christian man, lived a good life. Never had financial issues, never late on a bill in his life. He left my mother and me & my sister. My mom has never worked a day in her life. We went to our church for counseling and was told the devil took our strongest link….What???? That’s it. It feels like someone ripped our hearts out. Not a day goes by I ask Jesus to please give me a sign as to where he is. We were taught committing suicide is a sin. Did he pray before he pulled the trigger if so did it matter??? It feels like he has been gone a life time. I also feel he set a bad example for his family on how to handle stress….this is not the way. It gets easier with time but the question WHY will never be never be solved. If anyone is thinking of committing suicide please think twice. Things will always get better, it really is a long term solution to a short time problem. I feel for families that have suffered thru such a tragedy. We never once gave one thought this would ever happen to our family. The ones left behind truly suffer the most. God bless.

    • AFRIEND

      My Brother-in-law a few days ago hung himself. He was 26 years old and left behind my Sister and his 4 year old son. Im doing his eulogy today at 5. He was also a believer who knew Christ at one time but he begin to slip away from the Lord.

      • TheHopeLine Team

        Afriend, so sorry for you loss. Thank you so much for reaching out to other here and sharing hope and help. You are your family are in our thoughts and prayers. It is a blessing that you were able to do his euolgy. May the Lord continue to give the entire family peace and comfort in the days to come.

    • marc

      The only unforgivable sin I know of is to blaspheme the Holy Spirit.In other words is to deny the work of the Holy Spirit and call it Satan’s work.In my faith,grave psychological disturbances can diminish the responsibility.Only God can judge.So we pray for them.

    • blu paws

      Sorry for your loss,keep god in your heart

  • lishia

    Well I was in car accident got a compression fracture. My back hurts so bad I do want to end my life.. my brother beat the shit out of me first before I was trying to leave…. I usually go to walmart parking lot to sleepor get away from the abuse but it keeps going on my family hates me but my sister never belives whst I tell her was true so I thought of a dying declaration will be suitable for all even my so called friends that care about me

    • AFRIEND

      My Brother-in-law hung himself a few days ago and felt nobody cared… There are so many people that are coming to his funeral today, many have sent food and helped financially. People do care Lishia. I wouldnt reply if I didnt. Im going to do his eulogy and bury him today but im on this computer replying to you. People care so much its just that you dont know it becuase the situation blurrs all that out.

  • Confused

    What if you feel like no one cares because that’s how they act. Actions speak so much louder than words. Many people go to funerals for the ones left behind and not the one who has passed. Often, I feel invisible. I think about suicide every single day. I know no one wants to hear about it. I tried talking about it before and received terrible reviews.

    • Individual

      The pain that you are feeling won’t last, everything is temporary. Don’t give up on yourself, imagine what potential you might have, the effects of your actions, however small can be magnified, so YOU do matter, perhaps you just haven’t realised it yet. Don’t compare yourself to ANYONE, you are unique and wonderful in your own way, that’s a fact even though I don’t know you… It’s an amazing thought that individuality… The smallest thing can have immeasurable power, and each individual has that. Please anyone considering taking your own life… Think about that, your unknown potential… And it’s unknown because it needs to be discovered, which is what we live for. Someone I knew, not particularly well, but still, their suicide shocked and alarmed me, because I saw a beautiful wonderful person, who seemed to have so much to offer to the world, to themselves. Obviously she couldn’t see it herself, and I probably cannot imagine how that is to have lost that faith, belief in oneself… The very thought that individuals lives are cut short from discovering that potential, scares me so much, especially since the world seems to be fuelled by money and power. False ideologies, in my opinion. My advice, you feel alone, find someone to talk to, even if it’s a stranger in the street, ask for help, write a long list with all your positive attributes… Argh i don’t know what else to say, it saddens me so much that people take their own lives… And I’m sure I’m not alone in thinking that… The world will miss you, even if you think no one else will.

      • happy

        I wanna start a new life

  • salim

    there are time where i was thinking about dying myself, but due to the religion that i practice, it is really not an option, but when i think about why? it is because that, when i feel like it, i have a thought saying that, when i died, people will appreciate me more, start to realize what they have been missing, they will miss me, and realize that they have take me for granted, but that was a long time ago, after seeing people that actually commit suicide, i understand that this people are actually running away from problem, they took the easy way out, irresponsible, and the truth is that, people will not appreciate, people will not be missing anything, they will find someone else for granted and move on, and worse, people who commit suicide die for nothing.

    • Celeste

      Let me tell you something when you die maybe they will cry maybe they will appreciate you but you will be dead what you will gain and if they really don’t care they won’t even cry in your funeral so stop thinking about that you are so special and maybe I don’t know you but I know that there is a person loves you alot it is god and there is person who cares it is me

    • Toughy

      Committing suicide is not an “easy way out”. I can’t stand to hear people say this. How easy is it to get a rope throw it over a beam, tie it specifically, jump up on that block and kick it away? There’s a lot of time that passes in all of that and I am sure a lot of thoughts that are not “easy”…

      • TheHopeLine

        You are right, committing suicide is not an easy way out. We understand and we want to listen. Remember our HopeCoaches are available 24/7 on phone or chat 1-800-394-4673 (HOPE). And check out our latest guest blog from Centerstone. It has some great ways to be proactive when you are feeling overwhelmed and hopeless. http://www.thehopeline.com/6-steps-to-change-your-life/

  • lifes gone to hell

    im 16 years old and I’ve thought about suicide alot, I know it’s not what I should do but I feel like that’s what I should do, I want to cause I’m tired of the pain and dealing with stuff but I don’t want to do it, I’ve tried 3 times last year, my life’s hell I’ve been kicked out 4 times over stupid little stuff, I go to school to hear the same people run there mouths and they even make fun of me for trying to kill myself last year, I don’t even know how they found out and I can’t fight them to get them to stop cause I’m on probation intill I’m 21 because of skipping so much school last year, and Yeah I went to the principal about it, I pretty much live with one of my friends in a small apartment with 11 people cause my parents pretty much don’t want me around because of everything i cause and I have no where else to go, every time I go somewhere the cops stop and harass me, like yesterday I was sitting on a curb waiting for my friend to come back for I can ride with him back to the house cause I have to climb 820 steps to get to the top of the hill and the cops came along and searched me and cussed me and stuff, and Friday night at a football game me and 2 of my friends got searched and now I have to do 8 hours of community service at school during lunch because I had snuff, and yesterday I walked to dollar store to buy me something to eat and drink because there’s pretty much nothing to eat at the house and I was walking down the stairs to go back towards the house and one of the cops stopped and accused me of shop lifting the mtn dew and milkyway and beef jerky so I had to walk back to the store with him to prove I paid for it because I didn’t get a receipt, I mean I can’t even walk threw town anymore because I’m scared that they will stop me, last year in October my best friend and my cousin killed himself, it was at his sisters house, he was leaving and I was goin with him and when I was walking to his car he shot him self in front of me, he was the only one that was there for me for years and now hes gone, then I found my uncle hanging from the ceiling in January, and then my cousin Cody was coming to get me and coming up the hill to my house he rolled his truck and I ran down there and dragged him out and called an ambulance, he died from that, pretty much all my family hates me for whatever reason, my own grandma and grandpa hates me, when I was kicked out last year I went and lived with my cousin and there in a gang or something, I seen a guy get shot and killed, I’ve seen them rob stores and everything, I’ve been around them doin pretty much every drug, but I had to come back because all of them got arrested and is now in jail, that’s what I don’t understand, Why is it that everyone that cares about me ends up in jail or something, and Why are they criminals, I mean I’m called a criminal because of being on probation and the cops have found pot on me before, that’s Why they stop and harass me, schools rough as hell to go to and the rest of my friends are graduating this year and the rest is dropping out, there 35 people that’s a freshmen when there suppose to be in a different grade or out of school and in this small town that’s bad, and Yeah I’m one of them I’m suppose to be a sophomore but that didn’t happen, I’ve been drunk alot before, I’ve done pills a few times and smoked pot alot before, I smoke cigarettes and rub snuff when I’m in school or somewhere I can’t smoke at, this girl I’m talking to keeps hurting me, one day she says shes thinking about dating me and that I’m the only one here for her and that she loves me then the next week she’s telling me that she doesn’t want to date anyone and she getting tired of me asking her to give me a chance and that she hates me and to stop talking to her then later that night or the next day I apologize and everything and it goes back to how it was, I just can’t live without her, I love her so much, she’s been there for me threw all my bullshit and has made me so happy but Its starting to get hard to deal with her getting mad at me and doin what she’s doin to me, also the cops came to my friends house a couple weeks ago, kicked in the front door and searched the house without a warrant and called all of us worthless piece of shits (I’m getting use to hearing that) and then the next day they got evicted and now there living with my cousin and I’m living with my friend, I’m just tired of dealing with this shit every day and thinking about everything when I go to bed and there’s alot more then what I said, I just hope someone reads this and helps me out cause I have no one to talk to, and also I have depression and anxiety.

    • Debbie White

      I pray that God sends someone to help you. But I promise you, suicide is not the answer. God has a plan for your life so hold on and let Him work!

    • Celeste

      Maybe I am late but today I checked this website you know life it’s too easy but you need to know how to live it either you live easily or you die easily . Don’t think that I would never understand cz I do and the prove that I think about it every day you think that you are useless in life and everything goes wrong but I have learned from god that you need to suffer and never give up because there is always hope and a light that will make you feel better just whatever happens cry and then laugh and say good lesson l have learned today next ?. And please don’t you ever think that nobody care cz we all care

  • Mother of a Angel

    My son hung himself 9mo ago and we were so close and there was nothing he wanted more than his degree . Campus police said he committed suicide but there are so many unanswered questions. My daughter has nothing to do with me only her father. I don’t know how or what to hold on too any more. And I’m sure when I leave this earth it will shock many when they read my will. But nothing states I have to leaves everything to her.. I was the only one that was ever truly there for them both. But a person can only take So much .. I am prepared to need my maker and so ready because there is nothing left anymore

    • celeste

      I am sorry for your lost just try to hold it on

  • Snitty

    My nephew hung himself in April… I just keep asking myself why why why? He didn’t even leave a note. Sometimes I feel angry- why did he leave us?! How could he think that no one cared? If he would’ve called and said he was hurting and needed someone to be there he would have! His death (only age 19) has had such an effect on the whole family… so many tears and heartache. I just keep wondering why and will never know…

    • Celeste

      I am sorry for your lost I know that you are wondering but only god knows no one knows how it feels really so stop wondering and look forward one day god will give you the answer

    • leanne

      its not your fault. stay strong and make him proud

    • Toughy

      Personally, I don’t think people reach out because they feel ashamed. There is also the threat of being hauled off to the looney bin, losing your job and forever being branded as suicidal. Nobody wants to tell someone, “Hey, by the way, I think I’m going to kill myself”. Again, I don’t think anyone who commits suicide intentionally wants to hurt anyone else. They just want the pain to end…

  • martha

    I lost a young nephew too very recently and found this website. I’m so sorry for your loss and I share your wondering why and the frustrating feeling that we’ll never know. Hang in there. We are.

  • Ale

    Thanks for saving me from committing suicide. I was about to do it!

  • Ale

    I so want to die. Tried cutting my wrist today, and i did succeed to some extent. My home environment is just like hell. I have an 8 years old son, he always seems scared because of the fights between me and my husband. My husband lost his job 2 months ago and since then there is too much fight in the house. My father also is an extremely cruel man. I am 32 and he still beats me with my husband. My mom doesnt stop them, keeps sitting there and keeps watching everything. I have no hope to live. I just want to die. Nobody cares about me. Nobody loves me. I have no place to go. I feel the only option i am left with is suicide. I have been thinking about it for last so many days n did succeed, i wrote this article today n stopped myself from hurting me more. But i dont think so i will be able to stop myself in a day or so.

    • celeste

      I am so happy about you just be like this don’t you ever think about that. you know why, imagine the life of your son about you if he knew that you are dead maybe he will think that he was the reason and he will be dead too, so always be wise and don’t forget you family loves you because they won’t leave you

    • Nick

      It is a very hurtful situation.. I have had the thought of ending my life much too often as well… But seeing your pain, I have realized that there are people in much worse conditions who have only just started thinking of committing suicide. Like YOU.
      uptil now, I was feeling low and hopeless and just as a joke on myself, I thought I’ll turn to the internet for help(I mean, no one living could help me yet, maybe the internet might?) And that is when I came across this site, our of countlesscountless others and read on till I saw your story.

      And it got to me like a wake up call. You gave me hope that if YOU are in such a horrible situation and still alive, pulling through so strongly, I have much MUCH less to complain about life…

      Honestly, if you can give someone hope, I think you’re far better and worthwhile to end your life like this… You’re strong enough and I’m sure God is proud of you somewhere. He’s got some plan for you because someone who can give another person HOPE is well… The most important person that we all need at some point.

      God bless you.

      • leanne

        please dont give up.People care.You just cant see it,your not alone

      • Dena Mcclain

        Very nice to thank her & wonderful how her story saved you & she did it unknowingly! That is awesome! Chin up : )

      • DJ

        Just dont kill yourself im pretty sure people would miss you if i could see you in real life id say its alright

    • blu paws

      Ylou have a son, I cant have a child as a 31year old this makes me feel ive lost out, get the number of a hostel, social services, womens aid, u owe itto ur child, to not let the child. Live in fear of his dad, u also owe it to him to. Carry on, sort ur life out

    • leanne

      stop,you need to get out of there,this is not your fault and you dont deserve this but you need to think about your son and you,you dont need to go through this and keep going for your son,one day he might be feeling how you do now and need his mum
      i hope your alright you wont feel like this forever

    • Allie

      Hey. I’ve had someone commit suicide before and it hurts. I’m not gonna make this too long. But I do want you think of your son. If you leave he may be stuck with the same thing our going through. Do you want that for him? I’m not trying to ruin your life but honestly the best thing you could do is get in your car and leave. If you are scared of your husband and dad then do not talk to them about it get your son and a little bit of clothes and leave and get help. You should not have to be abused. It is not right and I hate that you have to I bet you are beautiful and strong and don’t let them get the satisfaction they want

    • Nalla

      Hi. I don’t know if you have updated but I hope you have battled your demons and looking back at this time wondering why! I’m 25. I just lost my father to suicide. He hung himself two days before my youngest sister turned 9 and a week before my second youngest turned 10. Words cannot express the heartbreak it caused them. I know that life sometimes seems really bad but with the will to change it.. You can. Look at your sons face. Find the love in his precious smile and eyes. Even when it’s rough. Remember that when you’re gone.. You never come back and unfortunately the only person who feels more alone is your boy. Idk why my dad did it but my sisters will never be the same. To lose someone to natural causes is easier. To lose someone to suicide… The pain is more. I know it’s crappy to say “look at the bright side” because some people don’t have a bright side.. But look at your boy. Let the love conquer the hurt and depression. No one needs you more then him. My sisters need my dad and I know if he knew the pain he caused them, it would’ve changed his decision. I hope you’re doing ok. I really do 🙂

      • James M

        Suicide is such a complex and individual matter. It defies logic but the painful thoughts are clearly overwhelming. Impossible to reliably predict, no good evidence for any effective treatment despite lots of kind and well meaning people. Numbers are increasing. The suggestions for prevention sound good but don’t seem to work. Numbers continued to increase in Australia when a major investment in prevention was undertaken.
        I have had 2 years with every waking hour filled with thoughts of suicide, a lovely family, good income, but was tricked by a financial adviser and can’t get over my foolishness. I am obsessed with trying to find an answer and a way out but just seem to get more involved with this thinking. Maybe talking about it and these websites make it more likely. I’ve tried all the treatments, but am stuck with myself, my past choices and regrets. These thoughts are like a cancer that I can’t get rid of.

        • Matt S

          But with your situation you have the skills and tools to get over what you did and make better decisions in the future. Be thankful you have that. Not all of us do.

          • kimyoung

            hello there my name is Mohamed I have about my father few month ago I was committed suicide but that was didn’t work out for me everytime I try is work out ever I cut my wore didn’t work I took pill is not working II have never done anything bad my ret of life but I m still working on
            to take way my life my own father make me second citizenship I have no face to see or to live

          • Please don’t give up on life. Chat with a HopeCoach anytime 24/7 – it’s free and they really care about you! http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp/

          • James M

            Unfortunately that knowledge just leaves me frightened as to where this is all heading. I seem stuck within my own nightmare

    • Yeah

      Please no matter what u do get help next time I feel like that my dad took his life my girlfriends dad also took his life changed us as people for ever so think of your family and get help hope things get better

    • Marwa Mohamed

      Hi Beautiful, your comment shown as 8 months ago, I am really really hoping that things are much more better with you now . And that you have grown more strong and more beautiful. Look, I am not an expert and I am not going to pretend to but I know one thing, you came her because you really want to stop your self from committing sucide , even if you really feeling you can’t.. but you CAN, and you will.
      what ever going on in your life fight to fix it and this is what I am telling myself, you never know when things will get all right, just don’t go for the easy way and quit, and don’t be so hard on yourself.
      live for yourself and your son.
      And always pray for a stronger you.

    • lilac6008

      Report your father to the police, the beatings must be stop.

    • DJ

      Hay you can do it stay stong and wait everything will get better soon and everyone hating you isnt true your son probably does and so many other people just wait it will get better

    • Love

      I hope your life gets better and that in everything you do you see happiness and hope. Some things you just cannot keep silent you need to report your father or something. Stay strong not only for yourself but for your son. *cutting yourself is not the answer* crying is way more healthy if you need to find refuge in a friend that you truly trust <3 I hope i was able to help (: <3

  • Ale

    Read this article*

  • Kyohei L Haru

    my mom..is about to kill herself , I don’t know how to stop her..I’m only 16 years old..

    I Don’t have a dad , I don’t have grandparents..

    my mom is an Aquarius and a very depressed one..

    I’m a Taurus and me and my mom NEVER get along…

    but now she is giving me all of her stuff…I just don’t know what to do without her..

    :'(

    • Celeste

      I think maybe you will show her how much she means to you and tell her that without her you can’t live maybe she will think that se is the reason that you are alive so she will never hurt her self because she will know that she will hurt you too

    • Leanne Thom

      you need to tell her how you feel about her and tell an adult but please know its not your fault she loves you

  • kyllean

    I wanted to die since I was 9 im now 17. i have tried multiple things to take my life.i drank a mixture of cleaning supplies,i tried strangling myself with a belt I tried suffocating myself I even took pills. I cut my wrist open about a year ago. I still have thoughts I have to injure myself to distract myself. I feel if im gone their wont be any worries.i wont be anyones exscape goat when there mad. I just want it all to end. I want to stop being angry I want to stop feeling like nothing. I want to finally be at peace. I wanted to be at peace today but I read this idk y I got her something inside told me to I guess. so thank you for now

    • Olivia Princeten

      i have a question do you have friends, brothers of sisters, parents, coworkers? If you do then I feel the need to tell you to think about them, how they hearts will break, some light will leave their eyes, they will be left with a giant gaping hole that you left there. People you never meet will feel horrible and stay up at night and wonder “If I just knew them, maybe I could help them.” Because let me tell you a eternity of nothing is a whole lot worse than a life of feeling. Live for the shows you’re going to watch live for the books you are going to read, live for the people you love but most of all, LIVE FOR YOURSELF because you matter.

  • tetea

    I have suffering from severe depression from the last 8 years.I just don’t know how to overcome this depression…I’ve been always thinking about committing suicide but I am still alive today..but i may really do it if it’s not going away..life is hopeless.I’ve tried a thousand times to defeat this feeling but i can’t..I can’t enjoy this life anymore…maybe it is better not to live anymore

    • Tiffany

      I agree with you that is where I’m at right now. Maybe its better not to live anymore

  • ReallyTired

    I tried to kill myself last week. It wasn’t a cry for help. I really really just wanted to end my hurt and pain. If the pills hadn’t been taken away from me, I would have continued to down the entire bottle of my meds. I have a doctor’s appointment today; I am grateful that I wasn’t admitted and that I was released to my family. I was abused as a child by a family member resulting in classic text book/cliched life choices…pregnancy as a teenager, drug use, etc. I overcame it by succeeding in life – college educated with a good job and a good husband, yet, I am unhappy and feel unworthy of love. It is very hard to not loathe yourself even when you yourself are a victim. I am 37 and wish that I could be happy. I don’t see how that is a possibility when all you can think of yourself is as a pig who is not worthy of love.

  • Juliet

    what’s the rseason for living????? there isn’t one. case closed.

    • TheHopeLine

      Juliet, Please, please, please never give up! You have so much in your future that will bring you happiness that you will never know about if you give up. This challenging place in your life is temporary. You are worthy and valuable. We are here for you and we truly want to listen to what is going on in your life and offer you some ways to deal with it.
      Would you be willing to call us or chat with us at TheHopeLine today? We are open 24/7 and all you have to do is call 800.394.4673 or you can chat with one of our HopeCoaches about what is going on at http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp .

    • Faith Lopez

      there is a reason in life, but it’s up to you to figure that out on your own.

    • MadaraChan

      It’s up to you, you can choose whether to make your life meaningful or not..

  • hello

    It’s not true that those who commit sucide are always the victims. My mother committed suicide when I was 16 but she was nobody’s victim. She was the monster. She abused me and nobody ever cared. I thank God every day for her death. My childhood and adolescence were hell on earth.

  • Anon

    My Uncle committed suicide due to depression. He was such a big part of my life and had children aged 3 and 9. I am aged 15 and I miss him so much. No matter how many people say it’ll get better, it is still a tricky subject to bring up so I end up ignoring it. I always wonder why he committed suicide. This page has helped me a lot. Thanks.

  • Sunshine

    Please don’t ever give up on life. It’s so precious and you have your entire life to live. My mom attempted to take her life 12/25/14 late evening. She put the gun to her head told my step dad deal with this and pulled the trigger. My mom was 4 times the legal limit when the life flight helicopter got her to Savannah Ga which was 6 hours after the actual gun was fired. She pulled through the surgery to stop the bleeding in her brain and is making a recovery however the bullet severed her optic nerve. She most likely will be blind (Only god can say that forsure) medical professionals told us she would be blind. She also has bilateral brain damage which affects behavior, impulse and motoring. Please don’t ever think it could end quickly. And please remember god loves you!! Find a church or support group to help you!!

    • SorR

      I’m sorry for what your mother did, but for some people it simply is the only good way out. It’s like telling a homeless mans in chain that one day if he tries he’ll get food to eat, and the only thing that’s left is reality is more and more hunger ’till he can’t live anymore.

  • TheHopeLine

    Mark, We sent you an email. We want you to know that we care and we are here for you. Please never give up. You have a future that will bring you happiness that you will never know about if you give up. We are open 24/7 and all you have to do is call 800.394.4673 or you can chat with one of our HopeCoaches about what is going on at http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp .

  • Ellis

    I feel hopeless. I have really bad grades at school and I try my hardest. I’m just absolutely fed up with life. I wanna end it 🙁

  • TheHopeLine

    Please call TheHopeLine. We are here for you. We’re listening.

  • TheHopeLine

    Sienna, We want you to know you are not alone in this. Reporting a rape is very emotional and a time full of anxiety. What you are describing that happened during the interview is post-traumatic stress. It’s important that you take care of yourself and talk to someone that can help you through this. Would you be willing to call us or chat with us at TheHopeLine today? We are open 24/7 and you can talk to a HopeCoach by phone at 800.394.4673 or you can chat with one at http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp .
    Please never, ever give up on yourself. You are valuable and you are worthy. You’re not alone. We’re here to help you get through this!

  • TheHopeLine

    Tess, You have had a great burden to bear. I want you to know you are amazing and the only person that has stepped up to care for your mother. That speaks volumes! Not many people have the heart, you have, and would be lucky to call you a friend. I know your burden seems like it will never end and it is robbing you of a life. You feel restricted by the financial limitations too. The important thing is to take care of yourself and to continue talking about what is going on. A great place to start is contacting our partners at Focus On The Family http://www.focusonthefamily.com

    “The Focus on the Family Help Center counselors are here to listen and pray with you, as well as provide guidance and resources to help you and your family thrive. Arrange to speak with a licensed Christian counselor at no cost by calling 1-855-771-HELP (4357) Monday through Friday between 6:00 a.m. and 8:00 p.m. Mountain time.
    855-771-4357 US (Canada 1-800-681-9806)”

    Here are some helpful articles from Focus on the Family about what you are dealing with right now.
    http://family.custhelp.com/app/answers/list/kw/caring%20for%20aging%20parents/search/1

    We are here for you and praying for you.

  • TheHopeLine

    Bob, it sounds like you are feeling very depressed and that nothing in life is enjoyable to you right now Don’t give up.. Please give us a call at TheHopeLine 1-800-394-4673 (HOPE). We want to be there for you and help you.

  • blu paws

    Thinkof those left behind, forever blaming themselfs, their lives ruined by grief, you must do all u can, see a doctor, get tablets, get therapy, change ur life, live for what life may bring u, read about law of attraction. Speak to people, don’t let suicide ever be an option, I have clinical depression, what helped mewas trying. To help other in same mind-set as me.it helped

  • blu paws

    Sorry. For your loss, just know that there was nothinbg. You could say or do to change this x god bless

  • blu paws

    People. Are not judging. You, they want to help you.. life is very tough, but. You must keep trying,imagine where you will be in a year

  • blu paws

    Your depressed. That is clear, you owe it to yourself. And wife to seek help

  • blu paws

    You are so valued, believe me your mum is grateful you do wat you dol, get online tomake friends, mabye ring to see if any support. Grioups in ur area

  • PK

    I want to die. I do again and again about the wrong thing in life. I have no face to face with my dearest wife, family and co-worker. I’m so stress.

  • Leanne Thom

    Im done,i feel so worthless and im never good enough im only 13 and ive been depressed for 3 years i have so many mental disorders 🙁 no way am i going to be able to cope like this till im an adult i might as well give up now.would anyone even notice..?im just the weirdo that cuts herself and always on her own.that does speak,thats alone

  • Tabby

    I don’t have an abusive life or a bad life. I feel like dying because I feel I’m living for nothing and there’s nothing interesting me anymore.

    • TheHopeLine

      Tabby- You may be struggling with depression. One of the signs of depression is when nothing in life interests you, when it’s hard to find enjoyment in life. Please call our HopeCoaches 1-800-394-4673 (HOPE). We care about you!

  • TheHopeLine

    You are not a quitter! You have come to the right place to find answers. Our HopeCoaches are available 24/7. We would love to encourage you and connect you with some great resources.TheHopeLine: 1-800-394-4673 (HOPE)

  • Ajay Ramesh

    I guess I am different then, the reason I want to commit suicide is because I want to know what happens after death. There are so many things unexplained by science that I can’t simply stop myself from being curious, I WANT TO KNOW WHAT COMES AFTER DEATH!

  • TheHopeLine

    Jami, thank you so much for sharing your story of hope and grace. You are an inspiration. Your children are blessed to have such a loving and wise mom. God bless you!

  • TheHopeLine

    Please don’t give up! We are here for you and want to give you strength, Please call or chat with a HopeCoach today. We have lots of resources we can connect you with for you to have a loving support system in order to heal. There is hope! http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp/

  • TheHopeLine

    Your daughter will NEVER be better off without you. Don’t even let that lie enter your mind. You were especially created to be her mom. It’s sounds like you are struggling with very real depression, which can mess with our thinking. Please call our HopeCoaches anytime 24/7 http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp/

  • TheHopeLine

    We want you to know that you are so loved and you are worthy! You are not alone in what you are dealing with. Please reach out and call a HopeCoach at 1.800.394.4673 or Chat online at http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp.
    Also, we have a free app to chat, call, email and get encouraging post at: http://thehope.dm/thlmobileapp

  • TheHopeLine

    Random, it’s very scary when we see our friends like this. It important that you tell an adult, teacher or your parents about this. Your instincts are telling you this is serious and your friend needs help. If you need help with this please call or chat with a HopeCoach at the TheHopeLine at 1.800.394.4673 chat at http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp.

  • Cata

    You know what the best thing is..to give someone what they deserve, be it good or bad. You are in a position to do that, don’t waste it.
    Think about the safest way, have a plan, and calmly pull it through. Take my word, you will be feeling really cool in the end, by that I mean powerful! (The plan might fail but but bailing is certain failure) Power to you

  • TheHopeLine

    Srinivas, Never give up! You have so much in your future that will bring you happiness that you will never know about if you give up. No matter how many or what mistakes you have made you are worthy and valuable. We are here for you and we truly want to listen to what is going on in your life and offer you some ways to deal with it.
    Would you be willing to chat with a HopeCoach at TheHopeLine today?
    We are open 24/7 go to http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp to sign up to chat . If you have a smart phone we have a free app you can download to chat with a HopeCoach as well at http://thehope.dm/thlmobileapp

  • Toughy

    I agree. I don’t think my family would be that shocked. I’m sure it would hurt them, but that would never be my intention. My family knows how tough it’s been and I think could understand…

  • Toughy

    I’m with you on the job thing. Had so much bullying and crap go on at my job and always have tried to ‘keep smiling’ and act like nothing’s wrong. I just can’t fake it anymore.

  • TheHopeLine

    Jakey, We’re so sorry you are going through this hurt and pain in your life from your wife cheating on you. We want you to know that you are not alone in this. You are worthy and your children need you to stay in this world for them. Please never give up on your life. Stay here to watch them grow and have children of their own. You and your love is important to them and they need you in their lives. Would you chat with a HopeCoach about what is going on? You can chat online at http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp It’s important to talk to someone about what is going on. We care and we are here to listen.

  • KillMePlease

    The police know how to help me with suicidal thoughts? Yes, they will help by locking me up in a stinky cell with criminals.
    The hospital/Psychiatrists know how to help me??? I have met at least 20 and they have all tried their concoctions & failed. Even the top Psychiatrists at Asia’s largest institute of mental science, NIMHANS came to the conclusion that I should leave my studies(though I had always been a good student) because I can’t take the pressure. Well, if I can’t take the pressure of medical studies (though I competed in one of the toughest competitive exams to get in medical school), how can I take the pressures of life, which is a tougher school than any in the world? I hope you will agree that life is tougher than any medical school. So what the famed Psychiatrists at NIMHANS were telling me(& rightly so) is that I can not take the pressures of life and so I should leave it(I.e., commit suicide). I tried several times, but miraculously escaped each time. Only I know what I am going through. Don’t dare to say that you understand. Wouldn’t it be fair to realize my agony & give me euthanasia?

  • odin

    I am just tired of tring to show people how muh I ccare … lets just end this … noone will caree about me, so why do I still try so hard to please them? No use, reason, advantage …..

  • joga

    I’m just bored. I’ve battled with depression and other disorders my entire life. Yes I went through abuse and a lot of other “pain” but nothing hurts me more than apathy. I have no interest in anything. My life is completely boring and I feel like I’ll never have the resources to go where I want to go. I feel like I’ll never make a real connection with anyone and I am terrified that absolutely nothing entertains me anymore. I’ve tried suicide a few times actually and I have plenty of self-inflicted scars. But I’ve never wanted to die more than I do now. I see no light at the end of the tunnel and quite frankly I don’t care. Your website doesn’t say much on this… I just see no meaning to my life. I have no friends, no job, and no money. No boyfriend and no interesting hobbies. I go to school, I’m a college student with no major (go figure). The only emotion I feel is hatred for my boring life. And you can’t tell me how to fix that…

  • TheHopeLine

    Trevor, Thank you for reaching out and telling your story. You are important and you are worthy. You deserve to be loved and respected by your family. Have you talked to anyone about what is going on? It’s important that you talk to someone so that they can find you the help you need with your situation. Please don’t give up on your life. Give your self a chance to move beyond this hurt and pain your are experiencing right now. Will you talk with a HopeCoach today? To chat online go to http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp or call us at 800.394.4673 We care about you and want you to know that you are not alone.

  • joe joe

    hey joe i hope you are still here

  • Amber

    Jim,

  • Amber

    Sorry, got cut off…

    I just thought you should know that you are a very gifted writer and have a very thoughtful and interesting voice. I think you have a lot to say that would make a great contribution to this world. Maybe just try and give some energy to that voice…in some form…

  • FuryX

    I have been thinking about suicide since I was 14 when my life was like hell from unhelpful parents and abusive sister to widowed deadbeat father and overly nagging and controlling sister who just finished Princeton University. Right before my mom died with hep disease, my sister abused me in various ways in the past and my parents show no compatibility with each other nor saved me from her. Instead, they sent me to certain education programs to help me, but doesn’t help me to deal with her. My sister is so complicated that I don’t even know what she is trying to do with me. I always wanted to end my sister’s life so I can move on with my own life without dealing any further problems that she’s creating for me. After my mom died, this family went onto a complete meltdown. My dad has been gambling, smoking, and drinking problem altogether which caused a huge financial problem. My sister finished Princeton University, but it doesn’t mean that she can find a passion nor find a proper job for her since economy is like crap and she barely changed her personality. I have a mental problem with so many scars that my sister inflict to me in the past, a severe head injury from high school that create a mark on my head, financial problems which I have no choice but to stop college to find a job. Right now as individuals, my dad and my sister has little money left with no jobs while I have a part-time job working at the Home Depot as a Lot Associate (thanks to my sister) with reasonable amount of money to save. Also, my dad has borrowed money from me to deal with his problems more than paying me back. My sister is pressuring me to look for a second part-time job or go back to college, but my life is so unstable that college is not an option for me. Another issue is that this family is living an apartment so rent needs to paid by my dad who own the lease and chances of getting evicted is quite high because my dad fails to pay the rent and relies too much on me to pay the rent at his expense, the inspection will come and see us like we’re violating the rules of living here. My sister has a job, but she quit because of her huge ego, her co-workers overused her, and her lack of passion of staying there. Looking for another job is extremely hard and frustrating that the economy is assuming that it’s improving, but it’s actually no where close to improving. The reason why I’m still alive is that my family may see a hint of potential in me, but I can’t have a proper life independently nor have a stable living condition and going back to college is a very long journey until they learn how to take care of themselves and not put me involve into their problems. As if right now, I’m 23 and struggling to move forward with my own life. There are a 3 options left for me to do:

    -Continue working a part-time job to survive
    -Commit suicide if fired from a job and no other jobs would want me in

    -Third option is something you shouldn’t be part of and I’m not telling about that

  • TheHopeLine

    Elijah- I am so sorry for your loss. Please call or chat with us on TheHopeLine anytime 24/7 http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp/ And you can also request a prayer champion here http://pray.thehopeline.com/
    We care about you!

  • TheHopeLine

    At TheHopeLine our HopeCoaches are mature and they don’t read a script. They really care! Try chatting anytime – they are available 24/7 – we care about all of your problems and struggles. http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp/

  • shena

    i would love to die cause my family is very bad to me

  • shena

    kinda true
    ………

  • DimebagDarrel

    SUICIDE SUCKS

  • Ann T.

    Life simply isn’t fair. Many people have the luxury of being loved unconditionally. Then there are those of us whose existence is simply an inconvenience to others. I do not blame anyone who has felt they really didn’t matter and the world would be better off without them. I’ve often thought about committing suicide, but I always tell myself, there is always tomorrow. May-be things will get better. See, I have hope, even though my existence is a big inconvenience to many. Once people aren’t able to give themselves that self talk, they actually go through with it. I get it and I pray for mercy on them. And for those whom there existence was an inconvenience, they continue on without regretting how they made that person feel. Sorry to tell people the truth, some people just suck, and that’s how it is. However, there are plenty of people who do care, even if they aren’t in your life. I hope that these comments help some people who are in a really dark place realize, that it is not completely their fault that they are there, and I hope that they realize that their death, won’t change haters cause it’s true that haters are gonna hate, no matter what. There is nothing wrong with those of you contemplating suicide. I get it, but when you’re gone, there are even less of the good hearted people. I feel that every person who commits suicide has that in common, a HUGE HEART. Don’t take yourself out of this world because I, for one, find each of you to have critical value.

  • Mia

    When all the strings inside them snap.

  • Rhiannon Hopkins

    I found out I was pregnant after months of trying with my lovely partner i got to the 12 week scan, all perfect. I got to the five month scan, all perfect. Five days later my waters broke and i gave birth to my baby son who died. Now i just want to die because nobody knows how i fee

  • Matt S

    I also wanted to respond to this article and why people commit suicide. For most people can’t understand why. I was diagnosed as mildly autistic, or high-functioning autism, formally known as Asperger Syndrome at 31. From the literature I’ve read on this condition, these people, usually males, have a higher rate of suicide than the general population, and so do people with mental disorders in general.

    If you think about it, these life-long mental disorders prevent people from adapting to their situation whatever that might be, which would probably cause suicidal thoughts. I have had them myself because at 33 I’m still financially dependent on my parents likely because of my condition, and have never had a meaningful relationship with anyone, and unemployable in the eyes of many people. I have largely had to learn to live with this condition and accept it.

  • Matt S

    It’s not always quick and easy if you don’t do it right. Be careful.

  • Matt S

    I have found that when I felt the worst was when I compared myself to other people. These people apparently don’t have more successful people to compare themselves to.

  • Jeet

    I don’t think that my problems are unsolvable, I just no longer have any mental strength to solve my problems. that’s it…

  • fee

    Ale I felt every thing u said, this is the first step to helping, yet there’s no such resources to help sadly like they have pro bono attys, they need pro bono counselors, pro bono judges man there’s not a system STRONG enough. I wish we could talk I have a son too, idk what to say, but cont. To try n stand. God loves US!!!!

  • Japs

    Hi,

    Great article!

  • Trinity Jay

    i know this girl that is crazy and she might hurt herself what do i do?

  • Please hang in there! Your kids need you. Create a supportive environment (church, pastor, friends, counselor) around yourself to help you get through this trial. You are going to be stronger on the other side of this and your kids are going to thank you for hanging in there for them. If you need to chat online with someone, please contact one of our HopeCoaches today – http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp/ We are here for you!

  • lilac6008

    There are days that i feel tired and fed up, i live alone, i have son 32 years old married with one daughter, my fear is how will be the life of my son and his family when i will die. My son income is so small and not stable, that is always bothering me, i have small income too. I am still hopeful that everything will be fine someday, i always do planning how to make more income. I used to have good income before, I am always thinking the future of my grand daughter she is the only one that makes me going and i am very afraid to die, very afraid to leave them unstable, life is struggling and fighting. Be strong just think of your love one.

  • Anonymous

    Please, whoever you are, whatever the issue is, PLEASE do not commit suicide. It’s not the way to go, it’s not worth it, it never is worth it to kill yourself, and if self harm is the only way, it’s still bad but it’s better then suicide. I know, I wanted to hang myself as a teen but now I look back and realize that I had something to live for, and I would’ve hurt many people in my life. For anyone out there that feels hopeless, unloved and that no one cares about you, I’m sorry you feel this way because someone does certainly care for you, you are loved and whoever you are, I may not know you, but I care for you and I love you and there is hope. There is always hope at the end and I know. You may not believe me, and this may not affect you if you don’t believe so, but I know it’s gets better as I once had the initial reaction to end my life. I once thought there is nothing to live for, it doesn’t get better, but it certainly does. Sometimes I still slip and get lost into these thoughts, but then I remember I have an amazing family who loves me, friends who care for me and a better future to look forwards to, a day tomorrow better than today. It may take a while, but in the end you will realize how the best decision in your life was to eat that interestingly flavorful food and to not commit suicide. I realize I got a little carried away with the length, but I want to get the point across that suicide is not the answer. Yes, this is what EVERYONE says, but it’s true and coming from someone who tried to brutally hang themselves and do self harm, it is a message to believe and follow. If you’re having a bad day, please read this or at least think about a better way, even self harm, though I don’t encourage it. Whoever you are, there is always someone out there for you to speak to, always someone who cares and loves you. And if you don’t know, or can’t seem to find this person, I will be that person, as I will love you whoever you are, and you have hope, and there is a reason to keep living. Never give up for this is always hope.

  • DJ

    I almost wanted to commit suiside untill my girlfriend helped me through it i dont cut myself though i bite myself

  • Mandy, thank you for your comments. I am really sorry about your dad. He must have been in so much pain. I have added your comments to this blog post. What you had to say is really insightful and important to share. Thank you for sharing your experience.

  • Richard Cheese

    20 years of pain isn’t temporary.

  • Sorry it took a day to post. Sometimes it takes time to read through all of the posts we receive. Please don’t give up. If you want to talk to someone about your situation we are here for you. Our chat lines are open 24/7 http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp/

  • I am so sorry you are going through this and that the suicidal thoughts have come back. Talking about it can really help. You can chat with a HopeCoach anytime 24/7 http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp/ We are here for you!

  • Sullied and Unsullied

    I had been struggling too from this, but Why why should i let this feeling of suicide overcome instead i intend to fight it till last breath. I m not perfect then you all cuz no human beings have been perfect. If u ever watched movie rocky where he says: Never be discouraged. If I were sunk in the lowest pits of Nova Scotia, with the Rocky Mountains piled on me, I would hang on, exercise faith, and keep up good courage, and I would come out on top.

    Even if life goes down and you feel like you are on the bottomless pit, then dont be discouraged struggle exercise work hard and you will come out on top.

  • Tim, Please never give up. A HopeCoach is available to chat with you anytime day or night at http://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp

  • Bryan

    Thus girl I thought was my friend for 14 year’s got together with this guy who thinks schizophrenics should all be locked up for life no matter what. Out of the blue said I was stalking her, him & his son. He has been following me all over. He’s pulled a gun on me and tried to run me off the road also. They have a 6 figure income, a lawyer and are friends with a lot of cop’s. One cop stole about 75% of my evidence. Nobody will help me and I can’t afford help. The judge got heads up about me having a mental illness professional so he empty the court room leaving me to defend myself against all them. Would not even look at the evidence I had left witch is enough to 100% prove my evidence. I had a clean record and now I have 3 charges that can never be off for life. The baliff actually made fun of me when he handed me my paperwork. Knowone will listen or anything. I hate the U.S.A Government now and do not trust cop’s whatsoever anymore. Last but not least I am 100% ashamed that I served in the Marines for this country of ours. I have never been so insulted in my l8fe. It’s time for a rope here pretty quick. I’m waiting for a store to open. Happy trails!

  • Chris Baines

    My 40 year old son who suffers from bipolar disorder (and likely BPD) makes me feel suicidal. It’s hard to explain, but he treats me badly–as if I don’t matter, as if my experiences mean nothing, as if my perceptions about everything is wrong. He treats me like I’m insane and mentally deficient. He makes fun of my looks, my weight. He criticizes anything I’m proud of. He argues about everything I say.

    He doesn’t seem to appreciate anything about me. Overall, he makes me feel rejected as a human being. This is especially hard on my psyche as I’ve suffered great financial, career, and personal loss during the past 15 years.

    After suffering years of his abuse, I finally made him move out. After I did, I felt much better for a while, but he visited on Father’s Day. The whole time, he acted like he hated to be here. I could tell by his skeptical expression that he thought everything I said and did was wrong. As always, I just smiled and pretended that everything was okay. And now I’m dwelling on these issues again.

  • This sounds like an emotional roller coaster. Are there other things going on in his life that are triggering these fits of anger and suicidal depression? Do you have a support system of family or friends who can help? If you want to chat about it with us we are here for you 24/7 https://www.thehopeline.com/gethelp/

  • Sally

    I have lost friends and family to suicide. about 7 years ago I to had tried to end my life. I almost succeeded. my dad found me when I was almost unconscious. Instead of taking me to the hospital he beat me up. My twin realized I was late for drivers Ed and felt something was wrong. She ran to my moms work and made my mom drive home because my dad and I were not answering the phone. I guess when they got there I was unconscious in a chair while my dad was punching me in the face and throwing water on me. My mom and sister rushed me to the hospital where I was then taken to another hospital. I was unconscious for a week in the hospital. My sister could not visit me because my dad would not allow it. My mom never left my side. I awoke to an illusion of my sister trying to tell me a secret. I should not be alive but I am. I believe I was given a second chance and I am here for a reason. I’m not sure what that reason is yet and I still struggle everyday with depression. Life is hard. It there can be a lot of struggle and hard times. But no matter what happens I still think back to whatever is left of that memory. to remind myself I’m still here for a reason. I am a survivor not a goner. Everyone else can survive with me because we r all here for a reason.

  • Dustin Gavisk

    I want to die it is becoming a very real reality but I do not want a failed attempt Im just cant fight anymlre

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  • Gene

    I’m preparing to commit suicide soon the hardest part to me is saying goodbye to my wife and my mom and brothers.ive tried before and have been suffering ever since when you hate who you are it makes it easier .

  • Alex

    Im 43 yrs old. I extend my life becuase i love my 5 kids. I know that they dont to have see how ruin situation i have i with my wife. I love my wife and i want to give enough of everything i have. My situation is that back in yr 1999 i was introduces to methamphetamine. I cant control it. Arguement was severe with my wife. Since 2003 when i got married to her in the church, i tried very hard to improve myself to become a man for a family. I fiixed myself and took my time in rehab and proved her that love her and wanted to do better. I havent touch any drugs from 2003-2010. And i earned my GED. At least have something to show my kids that i did something. But something is not enough and she is not contented that i did change and achieved something. I was doing better and we bought a house 2013 and realized no appreciations and what so ever. She yell at me all time and did mind because maybe im still damage and did wanna go back there in rehab. Argued continues. Disgrace my family because they have ruin life too and i didnt wanna hear it all the time. Started to use meth again and im affraid that blame is on me. Want to save my family but how. And just want it to kill myself. Because i dont wanna go back to zero

  • nequa

    To anyone having thoughts of suicide, I send a prayer to you that all of your mourning turns into joy. Do not blame yourself for what has been done to you, forgive yourself for what you feel as if may have caused whatever has happened to you to happen. Everyone is their own individual and special person so no matter what anyone says, thinks, or does to you ; you have made it this far because you are a survivor and destined for greatness.
    Don’t ever give up and don’t ever give in. Keep pushing through whatever it may be because somewhere there is someone praying just for you. Be blessed everyone.

  • Maryann

    Mu dsughter just remcently tried to committ sucide . I am guessing she changed her mind when she told me to ger her to a hospital. She has a realy rough few years she was raped by a friend. She has chrons disease where she got criticslly ill was and out of hospitals for months during one of these hiospitakizations my mother died they were very clise. Because of her health her wounding almost a year later now her socisl lufe beecame null. She soent most her time locked in her rooom onbthe internet. I am not sure what happened the day she took the pills i do know it was five days before a 7 day cruise we were realy looking foward to. I am hoping to get some answers this week as i her mither is scared frustrated and worried about her.

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  • Kat

    My close friend is suicidal, and yesterday she started cutting herself. From what I can tell, she’s been suicidal for quite a while, but she doesn’t seem to have the usual hiding and crying behavior. She tells almost all of her friends (a lot of the times that’s me), and tells us she’ll cut like it’s no big deal. She refuses to say why she feels this way, but I know she’s attempted suicide in the past. I just don’t know what to do, because I want to be there for her but she gives me a lot of anxiety. Help..

  • T Hal

    First, thanks to this site’s owner for allowing me to be respectfully direct about my impressions about the contemporary US mental health situation. I’m encouraged there are people who want others’ suffering to end. But I think the word “hope” in the expression “there’s always hope” reflects a critical thematic misapprehension. According to the American Heritage Dictionary, “hope” is to wish for something with expectation of its fulfillment; to have confidence, trust; or to look forward to with confidence or expectation. It simply is not true that there is always something to look forward to with confidence or expectation. That is a biased assessment determined by a cultural value and an individual’s reflection on her/his own life. It’s not an objective fact. Hoping for something, or even working hard towards it, doesn’t guarantee it will come about. There isn’t even any natural law that requires the harder we work for something the more likely we must be at attaining it. If what someone is hoping for happens to be something integral to survival or healthy development, yet which is a commodity subject to sufficient competition, she/he may have to do without. And this may mean the person dies or suffers. That is a fact of life. We don’t all get the things we desperately want or hope for or need. It’s disingenuous, or worse, to offer the suffering platitudes we all know are fallacies. Sometimes there is no hope. Wishing or saying otherwise doesn’t change that.

    I also want to point out that, just like judges, lawyers, and police officers, mental health workers are just average people doing a job. There’s no reason either the mental health system or the mental health workers one comes in contact with must be patient or compassionate or affirming or helpful. If you peruse the honest recountings of many who’ve been through many mental health systems, you see that often, perhaps ironically, mental health is none of these constructive things. There are very many things that can go wrong along the conveyer belt of mental health. I don’t mean to discourage people from seeking help. Not at all. But it’s naive of our culture to think mental health can address even most of the serious problems out there. In fact, according to our own federal government’s expert analysis, and as reported in April 2016 in the New York Times, the US is experiencing our highest suicide rates in 30 years. That statistic is inconsistent with the model of our culture and the mental health system being well equipped to take care of people’s emotional needs.

    I don’t mean to be a downer, but if our culture is going to attack suicide and depression effectively, we should start with some very frank, respectful, open discussions about WHY so very many Americans are deeply depressed, instead of assuming that depression is always treatable–or that the suicidal are always depressed. Censoring people’s expressions, disparaging them when they’re being honest, smothering them with vacuous platitudes, and washing our hands of them as we ship them off to “mental health” only make matters worse.

  • Leslie MacMasters

    I have what i consider to be a plethera of problems. I am beautiful and very gifted. But i am cursed in many ways. I was born into a life that wasn’t fair for me. I am currently 19 years old and i have a beautiful daughter who isn’t even a year yet. I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder at an early age, and have been going to extensive therapy sessions every day since age 6. The truth is a lot is wrong. I was forced into prositiution and am still recovering. This is still a secret i hold with myself today. Both of my parents were alcoholics and drug abusers. My mother would lock us out of the house in below freezing conditions, or make us eat the scraps off the floor. The abuse was relentless. My own brothers were taken advantage of for child pornography. No this is not an exaggeration, this was my life. I was lucky and very blessed to have been adopted by my grandmother after both of my biological parents died. She is kind and driven, and she motivates me and has given me every possible tool to do the impossible. And that is too overcome. She does real estate and is very wordly, and always gives because she is a selfless person. I have alot of positive attributes from her. I am strong myself. I am attending an engineering school, and have a full ride scholarship. I even was blessed to have met some extrordinary people who fuel my dreams and passions. Which is to become a Pilot. I fly regularly and it gives me something to look forward too.. However, i am all alone. My family is all deceased or gone, and my daughter and i have no real help. I was diagnosed with Lupus and i am in pain on a constant basis. I seem to somehow destroy my relationships. I have came to the conclusion that I can not have a functioning relationship to due a lack of intamicy, abandonment issues, trust issues, etc. I am tired of living this way and desperately want to change. The only issue is the how. I am struggling with the how. Life is becoming more and more obselete and painful. I have a man in my life now, who is very important to me. He is kind and gentle with my daughter, but i have been so terrible lately and so shrouded in depression that i believe i have ruined that relationship too. He does not have any mental illnesses and doesn’t understand me.I am incredibly misunderstood. I am beginning to feel more and more isolated, lonely and depressed in our seemlingly good relationship. Sex is bad, and i feel rejected. I don’t feel wanted, and it messes with my head. No matter what I can’t open up. Even though i am wanted. I also can’t feel intamite or not see it as a transaction. We are living together and i think soon i will be moving again, as things won’t be working out. Since this is the tenth time he has slept on the couch. I can’t go down there to talk to him because i don’t have anything to say. I am quiete and reserved with him out of my own fear. I don’t know how to fix myself anymore. I just want to end all the pain, i want to die. For once, I want to be normal, to feel normal. To be able to be in public without feeling shameful about myself. I have already written a suicide note and have my exit plan within place. The only thing that holds me back is my daughter. She is innocent and deserves everything life has to offer her. I don’t necessarily know if i can provide that, or if i can be the person she needs. However, i can say i did my best and that is al that matters to me. I have realized I am not my self anymore. I now believe i am a burden. I have thoughts that haunt me and aren’t my own. One’s that will help push me to make that forever descision of commiting suicide. I believe that it is time for me to go. I really do feel that i don’t have anyone and i can’t go to anyone. I have begun isolating myself over a period of time. I believe that it isn’t just the unbearable pain, but that i am misunderstood. Nobody will ever understand this agony i endure on a daily basis. I wish things were different. I have given this a lot of thought, and this was not a simple decision for me.